(The emails are typed verbatim as the original author wrote them.)
Thursday, December, 29, 2005 3:59pm
From: okmagnet@aol.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: Post
Let me say our family’s thoughts and prayers are with you everyday…we can’t
begin to say that we know the depth of your heartbreak. The emotion of yesterday
was unimaginable. The only thing that gives us any comfort is we know the truth
– Michael DED not do this. I know that is a comfort that your family does not
have right now. We also understand that Kelsey was taken from your family by
someone and the same person is now trying to take Michael from us. However,
there seems to be a great lack of interest in prosecuting the guilty party. Not
a SINGLE DAY GOS BY ht Michael does not do things to support Justice for Kelsey
– trust me. Michael will have his day in court – this we all know. We are all
ready for that day, because the things of darkness will be brought to the light.
What we should ALL be concerned about is the reluctance to prosecute other
parties. We know what kind of person Michael is – proud, gullable, trusting,
blind at times – yes. Capable of hurting a child – never. The truth is there –
search your heart for it. Please have faith that we will do everything possible
to make sure justice is done. We will continue to support your Kelsey and your
family in our prayers and actions. We would like to keep the lines of
communication open; and for that to happen our communications should be kept in
confidence. I hope you will respect and honor this request. God Bless You and
your family.
Thursday, December 29, 2005 16:45:00 – 0600
From: shirica@hotmail.com
To: okmagnet@aol.com
Subject: Mary Beth
Mary Beth,
You and I had a nice heart felt discussion and you made a request to me. I will
not go into details because I do not know who all has access to this address
because I know Tina has access to it, but I will say this. I cannot help without
getting the confirmation I need and only Mike can do that for me. I am not
saying I have groundbreaking information, I do not, but I cannot grant your
request without mine being granted.
Shirica
Thursday, December 29, 2005 4:47pm
From: okmagnet@aol.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: Mary Beth
The e-mails will be permanently deleted after you respond with what your
question is, and if and when it can be granted. You have to trust us on this.
Thursday, December 29, 2005 16:30:38 – 0600
From: shirica@hotmail.com
To: okmagnet@aol.com
Subject: Re: Post
I want you to understand that I am not interested in public displays. If you
will notice I have not left comments on that blog because that is not my style.
I am interested in the truth and only the truth. I only responded that one time
because of a particular comment made by true justice that struck a nerve with me
that I felt needed exploring. You have not seen me in the public eye or on
television. I leave that to others. I have strong opinions on what happened and
I just need one thing confirmed to know for sure. I completely understand any
reluctance on your part to not feel you can contact me, especially publicly. I
welcome private phone calls and I am very much into discretion. I am not looking
to get Info that I should not have. I spoke with Mary Belt and I felt a
connection. I feel for her in a great way as well as the rest of the Porter
family. It is tragic what we all have had to endure at the hand of Raye.
Michael, I introduced myself to you in court because I wanted to know the person
who was going to help raise my neice and because I needed to get a feeling off
of you by speaking to you and you speaking to me. I saw the look in court. I
just want to explore that. I truly understand your fear to speak with me. I
would not blame you for not contacting me. I was just in hopes you might trust
me to do so. I did not bring any harm to Mary Beth by speaking with her. I know
trust is something you are probably not big on these days. I feel the same way.
Just know my heart and prayers go out to your family, especially your precious
children. Whitney is the same age as my son and he has been devastated by all of
this. I cannot imagine what they girl is going through. I pray for her
constantly.
Shirica
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Thursday, December 29, 2005 4:45pm
From: okmagnet@aol.com
To: Shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: Post
We all appreciate your discretion after you spoke with
ME last time. We don’t worry
about anyone bringing us harm – that is in God’s hand’s now. The threats are
constant and expected, and we know they do not come from anyone who loved
Kelsey. The last thing Kelsey would want is more violence or heartbreak. What is
the one thing you need to know, Shirica? If it is in my power to tell you I
will. Please understand that our phones are most likely tapped. Michael does not
eat or sleep because he misses Kelsey, Whitney and Bubby so much – not telling
you that for sympathy, but because it is the truth. Many don’t realize that this
has destroyed so many families. Not a day goes by that we see Little Michael and
he doesn’t want to know where “My Telsey” is. Whitney lost a little sister too.
I know you understand that the truly Innocent victims here are the children. How
to explain to a 2 year old why someone would ever take any child’s life?
Especially their own? One they “loved”?
Thursday, December 29, 2005 16:49:42 – 0600
From: shirica@hotmail.com
To: okmagnet@aol.com
Subject: Re: Post
I need to hear it in his voice. I have seen it in his eyes but I need to put the
two together.
Thursday, December 29, 2005 4:55pm
From: okmagnet@aol.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: Post
In person would be best – but how?
Thursday, December 29, 2005 5:25pm
From: okmagnet@aol.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: Post
We need to think about where and when. We all know why this will be a huge
obstacle to overcome – trust is not something Michael feels he will ever be able
to afford again – look at where trust in Raye Dawn has gotten all those who
loved Kelsey. Trust is the main factor here – breaking confidence will not
change anything that Michael is going to do – that will be done for Kelsey. All
it will do is close down the lines of communication between our families – and
that is never a good thing. So much could have been avoided it seems if only
there would have been honest, open communication. Trust me, there were people in
that home who loved Kelsey. We all know that your family was fighting for
Kelsey, but in my opinion Michael was pulled into this battle by Raye Dawn, and
Raye always made it about a fight between families – and of course you would
never believe the things he was told. Well never mind, I am sure you would.
Anyway that is a whole different discussion. I do know this – and believe me
when I say this – Michael would give his life in a second for Kelsey to get to
see her father again. But he refuses to give his life so the person who is
responsible can walk free to do this again.
Thursday, December 29, 2005 5:31pm
From: shirica@hotmail.com
To: okmagnet@aol.com
Subject: Re: Post
Do you feel up to meeting somewhere this evening? I do not have my children and
I do not have anyone that I have to answer to as far as my whereabouts are
concerned. I completely understand what you are saying about trust and
confidence and keeping the lines of communication open. I do not want to break
any of those things. I have not spoken to anyone and I do not intend to. This is
for my own knowledge and now one elses.
Thursday, December 29, 2005 8:09pm
From: shirica@hotmail.com
To: okmagnet@aol.com
Subject: Re: Post
I posted a reply on the bashboard stating I had changed my mind in wanting to be
contacted. Please disregard what I wrote. I just did that because I have already
had a nosy person email me to see if I had heard from him. I do not in any way
want people to know what I am doing here. This is strictly between US!!! I have
not and will not even mention it to ANY members of my family. This is from one
big sister to another.
Sunday, January 1, 2006 17:55:21 – 0600
From: shirica@hotmail.com
To: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Not sure if you know this but OSBI interviewed CG on Thurs. I will be willing to
discuss this further later.
Shirica
Sunday, January 1, 2006 6:20pm
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
I assume you mean raye Dawn’s ex? I hope he wan’t stupid enough to lie about
things because his father will disown him. But then again he has always been
raye dawn’s puppet. Can you give me any more info?
Sunday, January 1, 2006 18:46:43 – 0600
From: shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
Chris went fishing with a relative and told him that his interview did not go
well. He said OSBI was very mean and rude to him. He told them about this
incident. He said Mike lost his temper and walked across the room and hit him
across the face so hard it knocked him down. Chris said he knew at that point he
had two choices, get the @%*! Beat out of him or leave so he left. He said that
Mike had gotten jealous over something to do with Lance but he would not admit
to what he had said to provoke it. I do not know what else they asked him about
but I know that while they were fishing Gayla called him on his cell.
Shirica
Sunday, January 1, 2006 7:16pm
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
that is a bald faced lie about why they had a disagreement – and it can be
proven so it’s no big deal – all these people that are lying are going to be in
deep trouble when they get hit with obstruction of justice charges – why would
Lance have even come up? Chris kows what he did and said and so do about 3 other
people who know first hand what happened and him and Raye are “friends” again
anyway so I am sure he is being rewarder for his services – you know the way I
feel about the Smith’s trying to trash other people? BRING IT. This just shows
their deperation to keep the attention off what all this should be about –
Kelsey and the truth about what happened. Who gives a care what happened in Raye
Dawn and Lance’s relationship? That has NOTHING to do with why Kelsey isn’t here
– I know one thing – the more they lie the more they can be caught in lies. Let
them talk their same old bullshit about them being the victims. This is the same
thing they pulle don Lance after him and raye Dawn split. And Mike gave Chris
every chance in the world to stop – Chris was talking about our dead mother in
front of Mike’s daughter. he apologized the next day to Mike, and everyone
involved. He is so wrong if he thinks he can just change what happened just
because him and raye Dawn are sleeping together again. Shirica, Mike knows the
lies that the Smith’s spread about your family – these will come out!!!! Let
them act desperately – the focus is the truth and Kelsey – they said for a year
how Mike was the best thing that ever happened to raye Dawn and now they want to
rewrite history – I HOPE they try to trash our family. I woudln;t think they
would give much weight to Chris’s testimony anyway – it sounds like they knew he
was full of crap – that’s why they were so rude to him. His father is going to
disown him when he finds out what he has done. Oh well – we knew that they were
going to resort to this – this is ALL they have – INSTEAD of talking about
Kelsey and trying to make changes and bring justice they are trashing her ex’s
trying to make her look like the victim. WILL NOT HAPPEN THIS TIME.
Sunday, January 1, 2006 19:39:26 – 0600
From: shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
We kinda figured Chris was not telling the complete truth because he would not
really admit to what he had said to provoke Mike.
It is very difficult to hear so many things that are being said these days
because some are unimaginable and some are just hurtful. The email they sent to
the administrator of our website was absolutely cruel. It shows so much of what
kind of people we are dealing with. It had some very hurtful remarks about my
deceased father in it so I can understand how Mike must have felt when Chris
made remarks about your mother. The thing is this, about 20% of Raye says has
truth to it. She just puts her little spin on it and she has just enough proof
to make everyone think she is telling the truth. Chris’ intention with telling
that story was to add to the fact that Mike was “very jealous of Lance and he
has a temper”. I know that Raye can bring out emotions and actions in a person
unlike anyone else. I saw what she did to Lance. I will not lie and say Lance
was a complete victim and was not at fault, he was, but I know there were so
many nights he sat at home waiting for his wife to come home. She made him out
of his mind crazy at times and she is going to exploit that for all it is worth.
She is going to do the same thing to Mike. Every argument they ever had is going
to be turned into something vile and ugly. She knows the victim routine well.
She gets just enough dirt on someone to make her lies seem true. When the story
in the paper comes out about Lance and Raye it is not going to be pretty. She
stated that Lance beat her and tried to choke her because she forgot to
supersize his french fries. Lance was floored when he heard that. Lance went to
jail, however, it does not show that she went to the jail the next day to try to
drop the charges because she had lied and they told her if she stuck with that
story they would arrest her and so she left him in jail. He got out the next day
and went back to their house. It also does not show that Lance had marks all
over him and Raye did not have any except for the red mark where he put his
forearm on her to keep her from hitting him. And as far as the baby she lost.
She never once told anyone that Lance did that until Lance took her to court for
visitation and My mom was the one who took her to the hospital because Gayla did
not want to be bothered with it. She was there for the pelvic exam and there
were no bruises or any evidence of her being injured to cause the loss of the
baby. She had however told her daddy just two days before that she needed to get
this damn baby out of her. Then she happily married Lance a few days later. And
they went on a honeymoon together. Why would she do that if he had just caused
her to lose her baby? Mike needs to be prepared for what is coming his way. They
are EVIL people.
Have you given any thought to us meeting?
Sunday, January 1, 2006 8:02pm
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
anyone who knows Mike knows he is not a jealous person – Mike could ahve cared
less about Chris or Lance and raye’s relationship for that matter – it was IN
THE PAST. Raye dawn got to go out when Mike and her were married – mike would
watch all th ekids and she would go out – soes this sound like a jealous person?
Mike Never care dwhen her and Chris talked – and she hated that because she
wanted Mike to be jealous so bad. Raye would always try to make mike hate Lance
but there was NO reason for him to. He knew that there is more than one side to
every story. Chris messed up bad – I would have thought he would have been
smarter – especially when he is facing jail time himself for robbery. As far as
Im concerned she can say what she wants about Mike – because there are enough
people who know it is bullshit. She is the alcoholic, she is the one who is a
sex addict – she is the one with anger problems, she is the jealous one, and she
is the controlling, possessive one, and she is the one who killed Kelsey. Mike
is no saint, but she can’t re-write history. He has flaws – don’t get me wrong –
he is proud and hard-headed, he always believes the best in people, but HE IS
not jealous, he does not have a temper, and he never laid a hand on Raye Dawn
even when he was hit or slapped. She is fooling herself if she thinks
badmouthing Lance, your family, or Mike is going to convince anyone that she
didn’t kill her daughter and that she gives a care that she is gone. I know
Chris is being used, and he is being compensated – I am sure Gayla will pay his
bond when he is arrested – because his father won’t, Dick Irwin won’t, no one
will. Just wait till his dad finds out what he has done – he knew Chris was in
the wrong that night. My secretary’s husband and Chris’s dad are best friends.
All I am saying is Raye Dawn failed to prosecute every EPO she filed against
Lance – that shows they were done out of spite. I know there were never any
marks on her – but they have never needed proof before to make accusations about
her being a victim. As far as the baby goes, everyone knows she didn’t want to
be pregnant – Iknow because she told me. I also know that the first 3 weeks
after she found out she was pregnant with Kelsey she did everything in her power
to try to kill Kelsey through drinking and drugs – which of course she blamed
all on Lance too. I knew her routine and I could care less. If she says anything
about Mike that is not a fact, she will be sued for slander and libel – I would
recommend you all do the same. We will not let her try to destroy him – he is
already accused of murder because of her – anyone who knows Mike knows that
hurting a child is the FARTHEST thing from his character that you could ever
imagine. I am tired of her being the victim – I will not let it happen this
time. KELSEY IS THE VICTIM!!!!! raye Dawn is evil and the truth will come out. I
AM DEVOTED TO THAT AND SO IS MICHAEL.
Sunday, January 1, 2006 21:11:52 – 0600
From: shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: hi
I do not know when it will be in the paper. I am supposed to prepare a statement
from our family and give it to them in the next day or two and Lance is doing
the same. I just know it is in three parts, but I do not know how they are
splitting it up or when it will be published. Lance is having a very hard time
with it because it is going to make him look like a monster for hitting her over
french fries, but he is staying focused and is going to do the best he can with
his statement. He just wants people to realize that after they split up her went
through weeks of anger management and also checked himself into rehab because
unlike Rae he wanted to change his lifestyle and that is what he did. He made
mistakes but he got help. He never once hit Ashley or even wanted to. They had a
great marriage and adored Kelsey, both of them, but all of this took a major
toll on Ashley. She just could not take it any longer. After the last time we
saw Kelse in the condition she was in she was afraid Raye would continue to
torture her even more if she kept fighting so she stopped. It was difficult for
us to deal with because Lance has lost a lot and we in part feel Ashley
contributed to that, but she in no way knew that Kelsey would die. I think she
thought that since Lance would be home soon he could just pick up where she left
off. Who knew she would not last that long? It is hard for me to sit down and
write out a statement for the paper concerning all of this. For so many this is
just the big gossip in town but for us it is our life they are talking about. It
is amazing the way people put statements on the blog about things as if they are
small talk conversation pieces but it is our baby they are talking about, our
life. The comments about the supposed sexual abuse are quite hard to bear and I
feel for Mike everytime someone makes a comment about his unborn child. I know
people are just venting and do not mean any harm but man is it hard to read some
of it. I do find some of it entertaining as well.
I am not sure if you realize but “hangemhigh” on the blog is Debbie Hammons. I
believe Sutton has already spoken to her. I did not want you to think it was a
new avenue to explore. I will warn you that she thinks truejustice is Mike and
is trying to lure him out a little. Please continue to post on there, I think
you are doing a great job with fueling the Raye talk. I have had more than one
person email me about it being him and wanting to know if I have been contacted
by him. I have not spoken of our conversations to anyone. I will not speak of
anything that is said between us unless it is something you want me to pass
along. I have told everyone who asks if it is Mike that it is NOT. The person
who started the blog is also trying to find out the identity. I told her I knew
for sure it was not Mike and for her to leave it alone. She has agreed to do so.
No one has thought anything of “interstedinthetruth” I just knew for some reason
it was you and thought I would take a chance.
I will tell you this –
When Mike came into Raye’s life my mom
was very happy. She had heard good things about him and was hopeful that he
could help provide stability in Kelsey’s life. I do not know what
went so horribly wrong. I just want you to know that our family in no way wanted
to keep Kelsey from Raye.
Mom truly thought Raye would get the help
she needed and Kelsey would go home in June as scheduled. That is why
she was working with her and trying to figure out the best way to work the
schedule to make things easier on Kelsey. Kelsey was very happy with us. She
seemed well adjusted and rarely cried. She ate well and laughed and was just
down right rotten. I would love to know how she was in the last part of her
life. Was she happy? Did she know that people loved her? Did she think her Daddy
had abandoned her? He tried to call many many times and the phone was never
answered. Was that on purpose? Did she ever ask for him and for my mom? Did she
suffer for it if she did? I am sorry. I probably should not be asking all of
these questions but it is just so hard. I would just like to offer Lance some
kind of peace of mind. He is a broken man. His heart has been ripped from his
chest. I will never in my life forget the sounds that came out of him when he
was told his baby was gone. I will never forget the sounds that my mom made when
I had to be the one to tell my family that she was gone. They will haunt me for
the rest of my life.
My mom said that she wished she could just let you guys know one thing somehow.
I never let on that I could get a message to you but since I can I guess I will
pass this along. – Sometimes there are things written on the website or blog by
us that may seen anti-Mike and she does not want you to assume that
automatically means any of us think Mike is guilty of Murder, it is sometimes
necessary to say such things to try to get a reaction out of people to get them
to talk, more specifically, to draw out Raye and her family. You made a
statement that out family does not have the luxury of knowing that Mike is
innocent and you are right. We do not. I have my opinions on how things went but
I do not know that he did not do this. I have my gut feelings about all of this,
especially after I saw the look on Mike’s face in court that day, but I have
also talked to OSBI and have heard some things from them that are hard to take.
I do want to warn you about a thing are two where that is concerned but not on
here. I would also love to be able to give you some insight from the DA, but
again, not on here.
Thank you for trusting me to contact me. I know trust is nota a luxury that
neither one of us can really afford to bestow upon a lot of people these days,
but I hope you feel you can with me. I am usually good at detecting things in
people (well, except my ex husband, but anyway) and I detect a connection
between us. Not sure why, but I do want to explore it. I do want to believe. I
have searched my heart long and hard and I pray daily. Anyway, I just want you
to know I appreciate you taking a chance with this.
Shirica
Sunday, January 1, 2006 10:46pm
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: hi
but he knows it is a lie – he knows he didn’t hit her over french fries – it is
so sad that she can do this – Mike never touched her but she is saying now that
he abused her and she gave him so many chances – please if she would have ever
tried to leave him he would have said “Good Riddance” – he tried SO hard to make
that marriage work – but like I said – all she cared about was drinking,
partying, and living the life that Kelsey took from her – I know it will be hard
but I would say take the moral high ground – your family has handled this
tragedy with such class – don’t let them drag you all down to theitr level – all
they are trying to do is take your focus and energy away from Kelsey – because
that helps Raye Dawn – WHY ON EARTH would she want to talk about your family? If
she truly didn’t hurt Kelsey then she would be working with you – But her
driving force is her hate for your family. I can only imagine how broken Lance
is – I know Mike is in grief counseling and he is a shell of his former self – I
AM IN NO WAY COMPARING THE TWO – A father’s love is unmeasurable – I just wanted
you to know that Mike’s pain consumes him. I would love to know what your
insight from the OSBI is. I do know that they very much WANT it to be Mike that
did this, that was obvious from day one – of course they do not want to admit
that they could be wrong. I can assure you that this is a secre e-mail address.
Insight from the DA would be great too – but I would be wary of anything the
OSBI tells you, they’ve been very dishonest so far. The fact is, if there was
CONCLUSIVE evidence that Michael did this, then they NEVER would have set a bond
for him, much less reduced it. They are attempting to build a circumstantial
case against Mike, and the DA has admitted as much. But my question is why? Why
pick him? Because he was there? Why was he there? Why was he left there with
Kelsey? Could he really have done everything they say in 15 minutes or less?
Monday, January 2, 2006 15:36:55 -0600
From: shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Hello!
I am not hesitant to tell you about the DA and OSBI necessarily because I am
worried about the security of this website, it is more the fact that I am not
100% convinced yet of Mike’s innocence. I told you before that I am needing to
have my feelings confirmed before I can be too forthcoming with evidence to help
him. I very much want to ease your pain but I would not be able to live with
myself if I thought I was helping Kelsey’s murderer get out of being punished. I
think you know how I feel where Mike is concerned but I still need to be a
little more sure. Like you previously said, our family does not have the luxury
of knowing that he is innocent the way you know it.
I think it was great that you have started posting as anonymous on the bash
board. Hopefully, that will make some people back off. Do not be too trusting. I
would hate for someone to contact you who was up to no good. I would hate for
someone to contact you and burn you or Mike and cause you to be weary of me. I
do not in any way want to jeopardize this communication. I am not sure if you
know who you were talking with on the blog last night, it was not me. It was my
sister. You asked if she would be willing to be truthful and helpful, she
already has. I know it must be difficult sometimes when someone sounds
promising and you think they might be able to provide some help to you
and then you realize they cannot. Do not give up your fight.
As far as the newspaper goes, our family will not be participating in defending
what she has to say. We will take the same road we have tried to take the whole
time. We will just be issuing a statement about the fact that our focus is
justice and truth, not who did what to who three years ago.
I pray that Mike finds some peace through his counseling and I pray that he
finds religious peace as well. I know he must be having a difficult time coming
to terms with what has already happened and with what he is going to be facing
in the very near future.
Again, I do hope you understand about my not giving you all of my insight just
yet.
Shirica
Monday, January 2, 2006 5:10 PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: Hello!
I certainly understand your position..I did not mean to imply that I wanted you
to help Mike…the fact is that whatever they are going to try to use to convict
Mike they will have to present to him and his lawyer…and no one would know
better than him..I know he is no saint…but the things that they will say and are
already saying about him are not true…so I do not want you to do anything you
are not comfortable with…the truth is the DA or the OSBI does not have
conclusive evidence…not to say they won’t do their best to build a strong
circumstantial case against him…but if there was clear and convincing evidence
at this point we both know he would not be out on bond…but that is of course my
opinion and I am no legal expert…I wish more than anything that I could grant
you some comfort by knowing or convincing you that Mike is innocent…but I don’t
know how that could happen…I know Mike has no qualms about seeing anyone..he
knows what he is accused of but he also knows the truth and that is somethig
that only one other person knows…and mike is not afraid to tell it…and I do not
want you to misinterpret..when it was asked last night..we are not asking to
help us…we are asking that EVERYTHING come out for Kelsey..just like you guys…I
know that your family wants Mike held accountable even though he is not the one
who committed the act and I can’t say I wouldn’t feel that way placed in your
position…but the fact remains if EVERYONE who has facts and truth comes forward
then our brother will not be convicted of this crime..Mike struggles
everyday..the onlytime he is at peace is when he sees his children..I can’t
imagine how LAnce is getting through this..I try to imagine Mike if Alesha or
Michelle killed one of his children..all I can say is God must be working in
LAnce’s life...Mike has NO way to remember Kelsey and NO one to talk to her
about....the only people who knew Kelsey that he was around were Raye DAwn’s
family....We did not know Klesey that well because Raye DAwn pulled the family
away from us..that seems to be the modus operandi of the women in the SMith
family..find a good man...separate him from everyone he loves....use him
up...and then get rid of him...The only picture he can look at of her’s is on
your family’s website...I don’t know what he would do if that wasn’t there...I
am no way asking for sympathy for him...I understand your feelings...I just want
you to know that this is our life too...and it is not like Mike is out living a
normal life and being happy...he is a shell...I applaud your family for once
again taking the moral high ground...I honestly feel the public backlash is
going to be huge against the Smith’s...especially from what I have seen on the
blogs...The thing that bothers me is I know RD and Gayla wouldn’t be talking to
the press without their lawyers approval...so their lawyer has obviously told
them they don’t have anything to worry about...which means the DA will not be
arresting her...so sad...It makes me angry so I know it has to anger your
family..the thought that RD could weasel out of this like she has everything
else in her life....I know mike is innocent and the thought that NO one will be
held accountable for this makes me shudder...just because the DA and OSBI were
swayed by God knows what? Do you want to meet?
Tuesday, January 10, 2006 11:07 PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Rally
My sisters would like to attend the rally for Kelsey. Is there anything that you
all are in need of that we can help with? You know that even though I know I
would not be welcome there, I would attend if I was allowed. Are children
welcome? Whitney may want to attend...me and my sister had a long
discussion..and she said she wanted to come, but she felt it would be taking a
stand against me as justice for Kelsey means holding everyone responsible. We
both agreed that supporting Kelsey is the most important thing. I just wanted to
let you know that the Porter’s would be there...we are not a large family, but
we are full of love and determination and we will gladly stand should to
shoulder with your family if you will have us.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006 16:33:53 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
I did not think the newspaper turned out too bad. I think it definitely went
better than RD would have hoped. Would you happen to know if it was possible for
them to still use that listening device if it was still in the room? Or record
phone conversations?
Shirica
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 12:21AM
From: John Smithtruejustice10112005@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
I do not know if they could use it...but I know if it was still there you could
find it. It wasn’t a fancy one..I’m pretty certain the range was limited. I
think there were times that she used it after that day becausue I heard about my
vehicle being seen coming from west of Meeker hwile I was at work and I don’t
know why else it would have been out that direction...I wish I knew more about
this..but they were good about excluding people who would not participate or
lie...and I do NOT think that everyone who went knew about it either..I only
know for sure Raye Dawn and Gayla know about it..
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 08:13:44 -0600
From “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Rally
Your sister is more than welcome and so is Whitney. I know you would like to be
there yourself but maybe there will
be a day when you can be. You can be there in spirit I guess. I think everything
is taken care of as far as things needed for it. I think it may be good for
Whitney to experience something positive where Kelsey is concerned. My children
will be there with me as well. It will be a long day for me but they all are
anymore. Saturday is my nephew Zachary’s birthday party and mine. I would just
assume skip mine but we could never skip his. As hard as it sometimes is, we
have to continue to focus on the good stuff as well as all of this. I know the
event is going to be covered by the media so you will atleast get to see some of
it.
I have a question or two. Has your attorney requested the phone records for your
home and Gayla’s phone to see if she was making calls instead of sleeping? Do
you know if it is true that Gayla was planning to take Kelsey to the movies that
evening? And, you mentioned a 911 tape. We were told that one did not exist.
They said Lincoln Co. does not record 911 calls. Do you know if that is true?
My sister and I have come up with a plan to try and get something going with the
DA. Not sure how successful we will be but I will let you know if anythig comes
of it. The problem is Lance. He is the one who has to request certain things and
he is still VERY angry. The fact that he is living with Shawn does not help
because he tends to fuel the fire. We are doing what we can. Keep your fingers
crossed. I have let Jeanna in on our conversations. She is just as trustworthy
as I am I assure you. She is a very take charge and get some action done kind of
person that I knew would be beneficial. I may should have ran that by you before
I did it, but the time was just right and it seemed like something I needed to
do. I hope that is okay.
Shirica
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 7:13PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Rally
I was so caught up in one part of your e-mail I missed another part. You were
told that Lincoln County does not record the 911 calls??? Is this possible? How
do they make sure they are doing the job correctly? I can’t believe that if it
is true..I will try to find out tomorrow if it is true...I know the 911 tape
would open some eyes.....
Tuesday, January 10, 2006 11:51PM
From: Jeanna Fowler (mailto:ms_bean1@msn.com)
To: jeanna.fowler
Subject:
We do not want to have Raye Dawn arrested before the time is right. I know that
everyone wants her arrested RIGHT NOW!! Trust me, I do too. However, I do not
want her arrested before the case against her is rock solid for the appropriate
crime. I do not want the OSBI with sufficient evidence to support it. We just
have to be patient and have faith that everything will work out in the end. We
have to pray that God’s will and his justice is served in this case. I have said
on here before and I truly mean it—God may have arrested Mike first in order to
open his eyes and get his heart and head in the right place for him to be used
by God. I believe that God is using Mike to be Kelsey’s voice and tell her
truth. It is a huge burden to place on him, but Mike put himself in the position
for it. Now God is giving Mike the chance to do the right thing and be used by
God to be Kelsey’s voice. As hard as it is, we must all be patient and let Him
bring justice for Kelsey.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 09:38:11 -0600
From: Fowler Jeanna R Civ 327 CSSG/GFSTLP jeanna.fowler@b2mx.tinker.af.mil
To: shirica howard shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: FW:
I posted this last night for everyone who is wanting Raye Dawn arrested right
now-I posted it especially for M.
Wednesday January 11, 2006 12:11:12 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: FW:
I know you probably read this last night but I wanted to send it to you again
just to make sure you read it and “heard” it.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 1:13 PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: FW:
Mike did read and “hear” it – there was a post that followed that said “Spoken
like a true believer. The love for Kelsey and the strength of the person is
evident from this post..We will continue to have faith and be strong – thanks to
posts like these.” I think that this post would echo Mike’s exact feelings.
Thank you for your advice. Mike cried like a baby after reading that....it could
not have been said better.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 1:33PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Bashboard
The blog must have got to someone because it has been shut down..wonder who it
bothered so bad..hmmmm??? Interesting.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 1:46PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Nevermind..sorry
Just read Kelseyspurpose about the blog...I did not know about the posts about
Kelsey....sorry. Understandable now....
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 14:57:50 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Bashboard
I had it shut down. I feel that our time could be better spent on more
productive, positive things. I think it started out as a good thing, but I feel
it has gotten out of hand. And honestly, I am worried about you. I am so afraid
you are going to hurt yourself and your case. I do not want to see that happen.
I hope you understand. I put a post on kelsey’s site regarding my feelings. You
can read it.
Shirica
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 10:53PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirca@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Bashboard
I just wanted you to know we are praying for you and your family. All of us rely
on your family’s strength in a way. Please stay in touch.
Thursday, January 12, 2006 06:18:08 -0600
From: “shirca howard” shirca@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
I think her mother in law is one of those that supports whoever side she is
talking to at the time. There seem to be a lot of those. It is funny how people
can hide behind a fake name and say all of the things they say but if they were
to see you or Raye on the street, they would not dare. They would never have the
nerve to say what they say on those blogs in person. I am sorry. I am just
having a very poor attitude toward the whole situation right now. It seems to
get to me every once in a while. Especially the ones how are power hungry and
the ones how suddenly what to be able to say they know any of us. The people are
sick and they need to get a life.
Shirica
Thursday, January 12, 2006 10:29AM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@ hotmail.com
To: shirca@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
I understand what you mean....again thank you for the heads up..now that I know
who she is it seems like she is probably using the blog as a gossip mill instead
of actually trying to give people a place to vent...I hope the DA has what he
needs to charge Raye Dawn now..he has all the reports he was waiting for.
Thursday, January 12, 2006 10:56:03 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: DA
If Jeanna was to talk with Smothermon is there anything that you would want him
to know or anything you would want her to say that you feel he needs to know,
but you cannot tell him yourself? He gave her his personal email address so she
has a small “in” with him that she is trying to be careful not to abuse.
Thank you for the kind words in your previous email. I can defintely use the
prayers. Some days are more stressful than others. I hope you did not think I
was telling you what to do or anything with that bashboard. I was just afraid
Ashley was getting a little too powerful with it and the knowledge she was
gaining. I feel that if you and mom will stay off of there it will die out and
she will lose out on that power trip of hers.
Unfortunately, I cannot tell her what I think of her these days because she does
have too much information and I do not want to make her too mad, but I would
just love it if someone would call her out and post her name on there. I bet she
would not find that too funny, especially since her husband does not know what
she is up to. You would not be able to do it either because she would know it
was you. Oh well, I have more importnat things to focus on.
How are you? I thought the medical report may be hard to handle for you. It was
for me. have you read it?
Shirica
Thursday, January 12, 2006 1:58PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: DA
the only thing I want people to know is the truth. If anyone wants to really
know what happened in those nine months – Mike knows. In my opinion, Raye Dawn
will tell only up to the point where it makes her look bad, and that is pretty
much everything. I know you were not telling me what to do – it is amazing that
some people would use this situation for their own personal gain. The site will
die out, I agree. The medical report was unbearable. I could not sleep at all
last night – I prayed all night that God would allow the DA to hold RD
accountable with the findings of the report. I can not imagine what she had to
endure. I do not understand how any one could do that to Kelsey – and the
thought of Kelsey looking at Raye DAwn and wondering why kills me. He needs to
know that here is alot more to this story than whatever he has been told by Raye
Dawn. The truth for Kelsey is the most important thing to me – and people need
to hear it.
Thursday, January 12, 2006 00:56:42 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: trujustice101105@hotmail.com
Just so you know, you can change your identity all you want on the site but the
host of the site knows who you are every time you get on there by your IP
address. She lives in Meeker and she as a VERY big mouth. She knows it is you
and she is telling people. Her name is Ashley Gilbreth. She used to work at
Lewis and her mother in law still does. You should really think before you get
on there again.
Shirica
Thursday, January 12, 2006 3:03AM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmial.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
thank you for the info Shirica..if I would have known who she was I never would
have gotten on there in the first place. I think her mother-in-law is still a
RAye Dawn supporter.
Thursday, January 12, 2006 18:21:12 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Discouraging news
First, I want to say I think it is great that you want to help by submitting
ideas to make changes in this system that was set up to protect. I think you
could add a lot of insight. I am proud of you for trying to shift some of that
energy to something positive. It is much healthier. With that being said, I must
now add a bit of news that you may find somewhat discouraging. Please hold onto
the fact that good things come to those who wait. I have news from the DA. There
will not be an arrest until the week of your hearing so quit hoping it may be
next week. He apparently has another trial on Tuesday he needs to focus on. He
does not seem to understand the importance o this case, so I guess it is time to
remind him. I am having everyone I know send him a postcard letting him know
that this case WILL make or break his career. I will be urging him to get with
the program and start making this case a priority. You might suggest doing the
same to your supporters. Mom will be on the news at ten on channel 4 and 9
tonight.
Please do not lose your faith. I have this hope for seeing Raye in her stripes
being paraded into court they way you were except I hope there are cameras in
her face when they do it. I know that hope will come to light. I know it will.
Shirica
Thursday, January 12, 2006 9:06PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Discouraging news
Patty would have noticed her toenail – with the bright orange paint – and if she
didn’t Kelsey SURE would have pointed it out. She was so proud of her
fingernails and toenails. They made her a big girl. The thing is I can’t say for
sure if I would have noticed – from the second I saw her I was in panic mode. My
worst nightmare had always been one of the kids in that situation. But it seems
that someone else might have seen it before the ME??? I don’t know. Knowing the
extent of her injuries now kills me. Kelsey had no chance no matter what me or
anyone else did. THAT SELFISH BITCH!!! the news about the DA is discouraging. I
guess the most discouraging thing is it is hard to believe anything that the DA
says anymore. For the last month it has been next week, next week, next week.
Now he has everything he said he was waiting on, the OSBI report, the ME report,
and he still stalls. If anything the ME report only makes it more obvious to me
that Raye DAwn is guilty. How could I have done all that in 12-15 minutes?? Why
would I do ANTYHING when HONESTLY thought se was asleep? Why would I do anything
to hurt her when I knew Mike would be there any second???? The thing about the
DA is if he knows he is going to do it then WHAT IS HE WAITING ON???
The evidence is THERE. Why wait?? Why let her walk free?? I will believe
he is going to hold her accountable when he steps up and does it. I can not
fathom how hard this must be for your family. The mistakes they made with me and
now their reluctance to prosecute Raye Dawn. My supporters have and will contnue
to push him to follow through. He has to know that people will not stand for him
allowing a person to walk free who even in HIS MIND AT THE VERY LEAS HAS TO BE
GUILTY OF FAILURE TO PROTECT AND IN MOST OTHER PEOPLE’S MIND IS GUILTY OF
MURDER!!! I have written a whole page of things that I have thought about all
day concerning changes that I think would have helped Kelsey by providing hard
evidence that Raye DAwn was hurting Kelsey. I will type them up and send them to
you, probably later tonight. I have a feeling sleep won’t come tonight either.
You continue to give me strength. Thank you. If you believe that the DA will do
what is right then I will try to.
January 23, 2006 12:42:06 PM CST
From: letjusticebedone@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Subj: Not sure if I have sent you this one or not??
Thursday, January 12, 2006 23:24:56 -0600
From: “John Smith” truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: letjusticebedone@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Hope
I hope that any information that you recieve from the website will be
confidential and not be used in ANY way to jeopardize justice for Kelsey. This
CAN NOT happen. I know the IP addresses of those who post are probably available
to you. But my point is, I feel your heart is in the right place regarding
Kelsey. I think I knew who you are, but the fact is it doesn’t matter. I know
that you may know people that are for Raye Dawn, but we all should want justice
for Kelsey no matter who it involves. I hope you don’t take this e-mail the
wrong way, I just wanted to make sure your intentions were completely honest and
you would never exploit any of the things that were said or any of the
information obtained from the board to help someone who does not deserve
helping. To many people this is our life and not something that is happening to
someone else. I am in no way questions your motives, I just want to make my
feelings clear. God Bless.
Friday, January 13, 2006 21:02:41 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: trujustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Urgent
what do you know about a hand print bruise?
Shirica
Friday, January 13, 2006 9:14PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Urgent
when would this bruise have been on Kelsey?
Friday, January 13, 2006 21:23:28 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Urgent
I am not sure. I really kind of need to talk to you because I am not sure I can
tell you what I know in this email. It is just a little too bazarre. I just
wondered if a hand print bruise meant anything to you at all.
Shirica
Friday, January 13, 2006 9:26PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Urgent
the only thing that I know about a hand print bruise is very very old. Before
me. If it is something recent then I have no clue what you mean. If you want you
can call me at 602-0877.
Friday, January 13, 2006 11:01:18 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: POSSIBLE GOOD NEWS
I do not mean to tease you with this next piece of information, but we have been
told by OSBI that the possible reason for the stall from the DA is that he is
not just looking at making ONE arrest. He is looking at making multiple arrests.
Now, you know how things are said and they may or may not come to light, but
that would be a nice explanation as to why they are not moving quickly. I
personally would love to see more than one person arrested. Be patient. I know
that is hard to do, but we have to believe that God has heard our prayer and the
light has been placed in the right place.
Shirica
Friday, January 13, 2006 12:34PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: POSSIBLE GOOD NEWS
We can only hope that people will be held accountable for their failures. We
already know I will be and I will face that. I attached a few ideas for change.
Keep in mind these are changes that I know would help, and I was on the other
side and saw how Raye Dawn manipulated the system. These are just a few. I have
so many more. I will keep praying for you all, and if I don’t hear from you I
will be thinking of you all tomorrow. My sister will be there, please look out
for her if you are able. She is on Kelsey’s side and she is one of the only
people I have left. God bless you Shirica. You and your family continue to amaze
me.
SUGGESTIONS FOR IMPROVEMENT
Saturday, January 14, 2006 8:38PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Rally
Wanted to see how the rally went? We are sorry that we could not make it. Mary
Beth and Whitney were in the car on the way over there and Whitney started
crying. Mary beth asked her what was wrong and Whitney said that she loves
Kelsey. Mary beth told her that that was ok and that was why they were going.
They have her so screwed up she thinks it isn’t ok to talk about Kelsey. Whitney
told her that she thinks that people hate her ad her dad because of what they
say he did to Kelsey. She was so scared. She was crying and she told Mary Beth
that she told those mean men that her daddy would never hurt her or Kelsey but
they wouldn’t listen. Mary Beth tried to explain to her that no one hates her or
her dad, but justice is a hard concept to explain to an 8 year old, even one as
bright as Whitney. It is sad that they have her so messed up about all of this
that she feels like she can’t even talk to her dad, the only person who has
always been there for her. Didn’t mean to ramble on, just wanted you to know how
bad we wanted to be there. I know everyone is struggling with this in their own
way, and no one more than your family. Just don’t know what to do sometimes, I
guess. I will be in touch. God bless.
Sunday, January 15, 2006 16:42:12 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Whitney,
You have never met me but you have touched my heart. I am Kelsey’s aunt and I
love her very much. I know you lover her too. I am so sorry that you are hurting
right now and I am so sorry that you feel there are people in this world who do
not like you or your daddy. I want you to know that I am not one of those
people. I think it is very sad what all of us are going through, but I also
think we are very lucky because we have Kelsey watching over us. Whitney, love
your daddy no matter what anyone tells you and no matter what you hear or read.
Always know that he loves you very much. Do not listen to what others say. You
know in your heart what kind of person your daddy is. That is all you need to
listen to. Say a prayer every night to God and send a special little message to
Kelsey to watch over you and your daddy and I will do the same.
With much love,
Shirica (Aunt Rees)
Monday, January 16, 2006 9:23PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: To Whitney
the letter to Whitney was special – thank you. I will never be able to explain
how being able to communicate with you makes me feel. The fact that someone in
your position who has so much reason to hate can look past that and see the
truth with her heart and still speak such loving words gives me hope for this
cruel world we live in. Whitney believes Kelsey is waching over her – we went to
Wal Mart to buy her little sister a nightgown and we got to talking about Kelsey
and her “Strawberry Cake Cake” (strawberry short cake) These memories are
special to me – some of the only time I was allowed to spend with Kelsey would
be on the weekends in the morning. We would get up, Bubby too if he was there,
Raye Dawn would of course be sleeping. We would eat bowl after bowl of cereal
and watch cartoons on Nick – Dora, SpongeBob, anything and everything that was
on. Kelsey would sit there and have a conversation with Dora like they were the
only ones in the room. Bubby would look at her like “what are you doing” – but
that never stopped her. She was so much fun...we think about her and miss her so
much everyday. late last night as me and Whitney were about to go to bed she
looked at me and she said “Dad – never do anymore. I just keep praying and
hoping God will give me the words one day. I think about you and your family
everyday...please know that people you would never believe are supporting your
family in ways you could only imagine.
Sincerely, M
Tuesday, January 17, 2006 2:23 PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: legislature
I just wanted to see how it went today at the legislature. It is amazing what
Kelsey is doing. Please let me know when you get a chance. God Bless you and
your family.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006 4:48 PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: REL Question
I would like your family to pick the picture of Kelsey that will be on the
billboard on I-40. I need to send the company the proof so they can put it in
digital format for printing. She is so beautiful in all of her pictures but I
want to use one that is special to your family. Please discuss it with your
mother and send me one as soon as you can so I can add the text and forward it
to the printer. I know you will keep this discreet as you have everything else.
I do not want to do anything to attract attention to myself. Thank you.
Wednesday, November 23, 2005 07:15:29 -0800 (PST)
From: Ashley Briggs share@service.shutterfly.com
To: kjbriggs@aol.com
Subject: Pictures
(Original message attached...)
Wednesday, November 23, 2005 12:14:23 -0500
From: kjbriggs@aol.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com, jeanna.fowler@tinker.af.mil
Subject: Fwd: Pictures
Tuesday, January 17, 2006 21:35:45 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Mom’s favorite picture is the one of her looking over her shoulder in the
overalls. I believe it is number 43 on this set that I have forwarded you. I do
not know if that will work or if you need the actual photo. If you need the
actual photo I can mail one somewhere or drop it by Midwest. You let me know
what you need and I will get it to you.
Have you considered joining my new group that I have started on Kelsey’s
website? I see you might be a perfect candidate.
Shirica
Tuesday, January 17, 2006 23:17:31 -0600
From: “Jeanna Fowler” ms_bean1@msn.com
To: “John Smith” truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Postings
I am going to tell you the same thing that I just told my mother. Neither one of
you have anyone to blame but yourselves when Raye Dawn’s attorney can anticipate
EVERYTHING that either of you (especially you) have to say on the witness stand.
Both of you are handing their defense to them on a silver platter. I can get on
the bashboard any day of the week and know who is who. Do you think that Raye
Dawn, Gayla, or Steve Huddleston cannot determine that either? I will be damned
if I am going to sit by quietly and watch Raye Dawn walk away scott-free because
two people have to communicate about this case via the Internet. Trust me-I
would like all of the answers too, but I do not want them in a format where
everyone, including my relentless, obsessed, mother-in-law and all of the rest
of the free world can figure out who is who. Communication can be accomplished
privately. It may be too late to salvage the damage that has been done. I
understand the need to get one’s story told, but telling it to Raye Dawn’s
defense attorney and obsessed freaks is not eh place to go about it. We all know
how strong their powers of lying and manipulation already are. Let’s not give
them any more power than they already have.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
From: John Smith
To: ms_bean1@msn.com
Subject: RE: Postings
ARGG!!! I can’t take it anymore. The DA is not going to charge Raye Dawn!!! God
it is too much. I can’t take not being able to speak these things. The fact is
he should have all the evidence he needs to charge her. Nothing I can say will
convict her. The truth will be told no matter what. But it seems like the burden
is too much to bear sometimes. These things weigh on me everyday like a ten ton
truck. I pray and pray, I guess I should have saved your post about about being
Kelsey’s voice. Damn!! you are right. I need you and Shirica as big sisters
also. I am sorry. I have faltered. It is so hard to bite my tongue, it makes me
so mad at the justice system that the truth has to be rationed out or justice
will not be served.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006 11:47 PM
From: Jeanna Fowler ms_bean1@msn.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
CC: “jeanna.fowler” jeanna.fowler@tinker.af.mil
Subject: Fw: Postings
You, or, we, have got to get some people under control.
Thursday, January 19, 2006 14:09:13 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Arrest
the psychic says it will happen tomorrow at 10. If it does that is going to
freak me out but make me very excited at the same time. She will supposedly turn
herself in. I guess we will see if she is right.
Shirica
http://www.kelseyspurpose.org
Thursday, January 19, 2006 9:10 PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE: Arrest
that would be too good to be true. By the way, I was with my attorney today.
Something I wanted you to know – I was told that Raye Dawn called Carla Lynch
and requested that she give her the info from your mothers old custody thing. I
know that whatever RD does or tries to do to your family one makes her look
worse, I just wanted you to know. Carla told her to go F herself, that that was
not public record and she had no interest in helping her(so she says). She told
Carla she needed it for some “meeting”. I assume with the DA, but I do not know.
Why she would still think anything that your mother did however long ago even
MATTERS I have no clue. It seems to me and everyone else that she is preparing
her defense, almost trying to justify why she did what she did. I will say an
extra prayer tonight that the psychic is right, but it will be scarier to me if
she is right, I think, but scary in a good way. the things you told me the other
night stuck with me, she knew things that NO one could know. She knew that I did
not kill Kelsey and the only two people living that know that for a fact are
Raye Dawn and myself. She knew about the handprint and today when I got to my
lawyer’s the FIRST thing they asked me for out of the blue was a HANDPRINT.
There is pretty convincing evidence in my opinion that Raye Dawn’s hands made
the bruising on Kelsey.
Friday, January 20, 2006 09:05:58 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirica@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
My mom has a specific question she would like answered and has asked I pass it
on to you to see if you would give her an answer. She wants to know if you
and/or Raye ever had Kelsey during the time that Gayla had her in her care. Did
Raye get to see her at all? Mom is also interested in starting some private
correspondence with her herself, other than what you two are doing on the awful
bashboard. If you are interested in doing the same to keep it out of public
viewing you can email her at kjbriggs@aol.com. If you are not interested then
you can just continue to speak with me and I can pass it along.
Do not sit by the tv today expecting an arrest. Mom’s talk with Smothermon did
not go well yesterday.
Shirica
http://kelseyspurpose.org
Friday, January 20, 2006 10:51AM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
I e-mailed your mother. She has not responded but I will see if she does. Can
you tell me about the talk with the DA?
Friday, January 20, 2006 13:05:52 -0600
From: “shirica howard” shirca@hotmail.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Mom said she will not be on her computer until atleast 4:00 today. She said the
DA is having a press conference at 2:00 so she is supposed to go to that. I
guess he is going to pretty much say if you have info step forward, enough with
the anonymous tips. Either put up or shut up pretty much. I don’t think he is
going to release any groundbreaking news or anything.
Shirica
http://www.kelseyspurpose.org
Friday, January 20, 2006 4:10PM
From: John Smith truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: shirica@hotmail.com
Subject: RE:
Well the DA is sadly mistaken and all the evidence is there to prove it. Any one
wil be able to see that he has only heard one side of the story, which is Raye
Dawn’s side, and sadly for Kelsey that side only contains bits and peices of the
truth. The bad thing about it is we both know that if the DA is fooled and does
not file the correct charges gainst her, the truth will not make sure Raye DAwn
is held accountable. Nothing that Raye Dawn can say will convict Mike. The DA
was not convinced fromt he evidence that Mike did it. We all know the only
reason that he is leaning on Raye DAwn as a witness is because she will say
ANYTHING. So Richard’s comment about “I’ve never seen anything like those women”
(RD and Gayla) was just hot air from him? We can’t do the DA”s job for him. If
he ever wants the truth, then he will talk to Mike. He is trying to build a case
to back up what he has already done, and that is wrong. He has already charged
Mike, and rather than start form scratch, talk to Mike and Raye Dawn, and do a
thorough investigation with both of them as primary suspects, he is gong to use
RD to build his case against Mike, which will seriously hurt the credibility of
the whole case. He can’t know the truth unless he talks ot Mike – RD will never
say anything that incriminates herself. It would be truly sad if no one was held
accountable because the DA did not do his job and pursued a one sided case,
which it looks like he is on course to do.
January 20, 2006 4:43:06 PM
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: kjbriggs@aol.com
We had been wanting to I contact you for some time now. There are so many things
that need to be said, but I will just tell you that I will answer any questions
that I can for you. We know that you all want and deserve the truth. I know the
correspondence must be hard and many people would not understand but here goes.
Our prayers are with your family every day.
Friday, January 20, 2006 21:20:38 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: Correspondence
I have been told there are problems with aol. This is the first e-mail I have
received from you so if there are others that have not been responded to that is
why. First of all this is a little strange. Why we either one have a desire to
communicate may seem strange, but when you grasp at straws for answers your
willing to put yourself out there. Obviously I have many questions and they
start with last January all the way to October 11th. I would like to
sit and ask point blank questions and get very honest point blank answers, but I
also don’t want to take advantage of your situation. Basically there is nothing
I can do to change the criminal investigation. Facts are facts and that is what
it is based on. I am sure you know I am not convinced the proper person has been
charged with the right charge. I have been snowed by so many concerning Kelsey
for so long that I have to remain skeptical of everyone. I am actually looking
for answers for the civil case at this point. I feel there are a lot of people
who did not act ethically and I want to know who, what, when and why. If there
was enough information to put some others in jail for failing Kelsey then I
would be willing to talk to the DA about deals.
I am sure you know who all I am interested in, but mostly Gayla or any family
member, Meeker Police, DHS, CASA, CHBS, Judge Key, Judge Combs, Greg Wilson and
Dr. Koons. Some things I want to know is how and who got to the Judge? What is
the connection between Carla Lynch and the Smiths? Or the connection between
anyone and the Smith family. Did Gayla allow Raye Dawn to see Kelsey during the
month she had her? Are any of these people Raye Dawn? Why did Miste lie about
the zoo trip and what is she saying now? That is a lot of questions, but I feel
the need to hold everyone accountable for Kelsey’s death. Don’t answer anything
you are not comfortable with, I am not trying to put you in a bad position. Even
with the situation the way it is, I don’t think it right to take advantage of
you. You are young, you got caught up with a family that snowed you big time. I
understand how that can happen.
I honestly don’t have much information on how the investigation is going. One
minute I feel they are going after Raye Dawn for the right charge and sometimes
I wonder what they are thinking. Right now I feel I need to know every lie she
told during this past year, I need everyone who saw her hit Kelsey beyond a
normal spanking, even though I feel she was to young to have ever been spanked.
I need to know who drove around dirt roads with her drinking, while Kelsey was
in the car. These are vital pieces of information. This is a lot of questions,
answer what you want to, but just know I cannot stick my neck out to help you
without truthful answers.
Once again let me say, you are young, you don’t have the guidance of your
parents, and I am trying not to take advantage of that. Part of me has
compassion for you and your situation and part of me thinks of how Kelsey lost
because of actions you were either aware of or part of. I am not here to make
you feel worse, I just know I want accountability. I don’t want my feelings for
Raye and her family to over shadow my willingness to accept the fact that maybe
they did nothing wrong. I had no idea they hated me and our family the way they
do.
I honestly wanted Kelsey to go home and have a happy life at some point. I
always wanted to work with Raye. I got irritated at her for things, but never
felt hate for her. I only wanted Kelsey to be happy, safe, and loved. It is hard
to think a small child as precious as Kelsey died because so many loved her and
fought over her. There has to be more to this story than that.
Hopefully we can work together to make sense of it. At any point you are
uncomfortable communicating with me, please let me know and I will understand
your decision.
Friday, January 20, 2006 9:46:50 PM
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Well here goes. This is the hard part. The criminal investigation is being
bungled severely. Every lawyer in the county knows this. The DA is destroying
his case day by day. We feel we have solid evidence that Raye Dawn committed the
crime. The DA has the same evidence and it is being ignored. Basically at this
point it appears that he has made the decision that rather than admit that they
may have made a mistake he has chosen to continue on the current course which
will NOT get justice for Kelsey. Raye Dawn will not tell the truth about what
happened, and it is unfortunate that the DA does not see that, but that is how
it is. She was NEVER pursued as a primary suspect in this investigation – even
these last two months have been them basically going throught the motions. You
know as well as I do that the people the OSBI have interviewed. When they would
attempt to tell the OSBI about Raye Dawn’s temperament or behavior the
investigators will cahnge the subjest or refute their statements. The last two
months have basically been to give the appearance of impartiality. I know of
more than two people that have falsified statements to the OSBI on Raye Dawn’s
behalf. None of these people had any trouble getting interviews. Yet I also know
of at LEAST 4 people who tried to contact the OSBI and the DA with info and were
denied interviews because they had unfavorable things to say about Raye Dawn.
How do you think this will bode for the prosecution? The fact is Richard could
just as easily charge Raye Dawn with the murder as me. He has made a judgement
call after only listening to Raye DAwn’s side. He will not get the truth from
her. Basically, his press conference sounded to me like he is already preparing
people for the possibility that he may choose not to even file against her. He
was passing the busk saying “if you all don’t give me info then I can’t arrest
her”. He has just as much evidence against her as me, and then he would have her
actions since Kelsey’s death, which speak volumes. I know you have been fooled
in the past, we all were. I know you want people hels accountable, but it HAS to
start with Raye Dawn. Anything esle is not justice. As far as the answers, I
have them all. I would rather talk to you or someone in person. Ask your
daughter if she feels she got truthful answers from me. Kathie, I will have to
live with my part in this although my part is not what you imagine it was I am
sure. Nothing anyone can say can make that any easier or harder. One thing that
you have to know – I never hurt Kelsey. Never did, never could, never would – in
a million years. My time with the children was spent trying to make their lives
better. I was very limited in my time with Kelsey. In hindsight I know why. I do
not know of Raye Dawn ever seeing Kelsey. I never did when she was with Gayla.
Gayla would have Kelsey’s cousins over to take care of Kelsey. No one is helping
me now. I do not want anyone’s help. Greg Wilson is helping Raye Dawn, or was
the last I knew. He knows I can expose the depth o the conflict of interest. The
last thing that he wants is for me to get my chance to talk. Raye Dawn asked
Carla to help her dig up dirt on you and Carla told her to fly a kite. Kathie,
all I can tell you is that MANY failed Kelsey. I will not lie to protect anyone,
including myself. The lie about the zoo was told because Raye Dawn wanted it
told. I did not know about it until much later. I actually told Crystal Johnson
in my first interview with her about it what actually happened. I mentioned it
to Raye DAwn late rin passing not thinking it was a big deal and she FLIPPED.
She never filled me in on the story. As far as what Miste is saying now, I have
no clue. She promised me before all this happened she would tell the truth about
everything that she knew but attempts to reach her have not been successful.
Basically by me being in jail for two months that made people who knew better
think twice about my innocence. I know Miste will not lie for Raye Dawn under
oath, so she will be subpeona’d. I am going to nail everyone to the wall that I
can in the criminal case to see what they have to say. As far as who Raye DAwn
was with when she would drive for hours drinking with Keslsey, we are pretty
screwed there because CG was the usual suspect and he would never tell the
truth,in fact has already lied to the OSBI and will face charges for it. Raye
Dawn Spanking Keelsey, I have seen it cross the line. Kathie, the thing you need
to know is that I will give you the answers and I want people held accountable.
I pray everyday for that day in court when I can tell the truth so the people
who love Kelsey can finally hear it. Respond when possible and if you do not
deel you can meet me then you can send a list of questions with Shirica
possibly. I may be way off base but I do not believe she is convinced that the
correct person is charged with the proper charge either.
Saturday, January 21, 2006 10:49:25 PM
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: kjbriggs@aol.com
Would you still be interested in meeting tomorrow? I am not opposed to Shirica
coming. I feel the strongest need to talk to you. Let me know and I will plan
accordingly. So many questions need to be answered.
Sunday, January 22, 2006 00:18:37 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: Question
Tomorrow is fine. Shirica might not come, has a boyfriend that she is smitten
with and it is his day off. I can meet you tomorrow, but I think it could wait
until Monday or Tuesday since you have Whitney. You should spend as much time
with her as possible since she has been through so much. I am supposed to take
Smothermon a time line on Monday sometime, but I can work around that. I have a
meeting to discuss child abuse issues on Monday at 4:30 in Midwest City. I don’t
know what your transportation is like so let me know. I am pretty flexible. I
will be up for another 30 minutes or so. I took a tylenol pm and it should be
kicking in soon.
Sunday, January 22, 2006 7:12:33 AM
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
I do not have Whitney tomorrow. I will have my son however. It is whenever it is
convenient for you. Monday I will be at my office. I will wait to hear from you.
Basically I have to rely on my sister for transportation right now. Monday may
work, depending on what time you would be through with your meeting. My sister
would bepicking me up from work in Meeker at about 5:45. We would be back
throught Midwest City about 6:30 or so. Please, you tell me when works for you.
As you know my life is pretty devoid of activity. I know you have much more to
do so you tell me the day and I will work a time out. The only thing that I
would ask is that I would like Richard to know that you heard the comment Julie
made about the photos(proof) she had that LAnce was abusing Kelsey when you went
to get Kelsey with Don Conner. Shirica had mentioned this and I do not know what
was said. I do not want you to think that I am asking you to help me, I am
simply asking if that was said it may be worth mentioning becasue Julie will be
subpeonad by my lawyer for a deposition and I feel she willa dmit to it if she
feels it will not be used to incriminate Raye Dawn. She is dim enough that she
may admit to having the photos. The other thing that I do want you to know – I
can hand you your civil case on a silver platter. I do not say this to persuade
you to help me. I just want you to know that I am having my lawyer subpeona
EVERYONE that was involved in the case. And another intersting side note – one
of my attorney’s personal missions in life is to get Greg Wilson disbarred. The
information is there to do it. I want what you want. I will do everything in my
power to make sure everyone who is responsible is held accountable – financially
or criminally – no matter who that may be.
Saturday, January 21, 2006 15:00:55 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: trujustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: (no subject)
I don’t know if you sent anything because of my aol problems. Try again if you
did or send Shirica a message on her phone 788-5971 or what ever you want.
Just let me know if today is possible.
Sunday, January 22, 2006 7:08:40 AM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Tomorrow is better for me. Whitney is with me today. I just got the mail, sorry
for the delay in responding. I will try to work something out tomorrow, the
difficult thing is I can’t drive right now. I will call you or S if I can make
it to work. I can;t respond to the things you said in your first e-mail right
now but there are answers.
Sunday, January 22, 2006 14:24:01 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Are you bringing your son to Shawnee tonight or in the morning?
Monday, January 23, 2006 5:56:55 AM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
I am bringing him to Shawnee tonight. I agree, I do not want to be on a clock
either. We will work it out this week. My schedule is pretty much open – I
generally go into work at about 7:00 and stay till 6:00. I agree about not being
in the north side of OKC. The first time I went out fo the house after all this
was the day after Christmas – my sisters drug me to a movie and withn 3 secomds
of walking in Quail Springs Mal I saw Raye Dawn and Gayla. She had the nerve to
look at me and just chuckle like “I got away with it.” I just new the stalking
rumors would start. Truth be told I would never be within ten miles of her if
given the choice. Unfortunately with what I have to do that will not be
possible. Kathie, I can assure you, you would be wasting effore if you try to
consider the possibility that the Smiths may have done nothing wrong. Wrong was
done. More is doen everyday. The web of deception is woven deeper and deeper
everyday. I will contact you or Shirica about meeting this week.
Monday January 23, 2006 11:54:14 AM CST
From: jeanna.fowler@b2mx.tinker.af.mil
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Subject: FW:
Monday, January 23, 2006 09:42:26 -0600
From: Fowler Jeanna R Civ 327 CSSG/GFSTLP
jeanna.fowler@b2mx.tinker.af.mil
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
I truly believe that Richard Smothermon wants the truth and true justice for
Kelsey. I believe that he is open to ANYONE who has evidence in this case. He
has stated to me that he would rather see a guilty person walk free than a wrong
person convicted. At this point, I have to believe that he really means that. I
pray that God will give strength to any and all people that need to come
forward. Kelsey’s voice needs to be heard and her true story needs to be told.
Respectfully,
Jeanna Fowler
B-2 Production Manager
Tinker AFB, OK
DSN: 339-7511
Comm: 405-739-7511
Monday, January 23, 2006 11:29 AM
From: John Smith mailto:truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: jeanna.fowler@b2mx.tinker.af.mil
Subject: RE:
conversation with attorney was not hopeful. Bottom line is this – Richard knows
who the single biggest source of information is. Richard has made NO attempt to
talk to this person. Richard is placing weight on Raye Dawn’s testimony when she
is the other murder suspect. Better lawyers than him feel he is looking for a
way out of arresting her. No good attorney would attempt to prosecute a murder
case withour hearing all sides. Feelings were echoed of if Richard had any
information he needed verified there is one source to have that done, whether it
is onfo on Mike or Raye Dawn. Raye Dawn has had her chance to tell the truth,
and she obviously has not done that or she would have been arrested. The feeling
is that by placing the burden of proof back on “anonymous” tipsters, the buck is
being prepared to be passed. The DA has put himself in this position. The truth
will be told but I am afraid that our desire to believe that the DA is genuinely
concerned with prosecuting the correct party may be in vain. If he was
interested he would contact the proper parties and arrange it. It is HIS job to
do this. Mike WILL tell the truth, but he will not be allowed to take the first
step. If Richard wants to know the truth about Kelsey he will either file
charges or contact the proper people.
Monday, January 23, 2006 13:03:33 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: (no subject)
Do you actually stay at work each day? So the evening is better? You better not
let you wife know you are working, she might want all of your earnings. I saw
you mother-in-laws car at Mildreds again last Friday. They have come to town
several times lately. You should get a giant sticker made for your window at
work. That might send them over the edge. Have you seen the stickers they have
made? I expect a sign up at Mildreds any day. The bash board was interesting
last night, but Debbie Hammons should not let them get under her skin, that is
what they want. They never stick around after they post something. I am going to
Smothermons later this afternoon, that is if I get this time line done. I hope
he worked on the case over the weekend and is ready to sign the warrant. Do you
know what is going on Firday? Is it or isn’t it a pre-lim?
Raye Dawn had her attorney write up a stalking complaint on Ashley as soon as
she and Lance got married. So we have been a part of her game for a long time. I
read the e-mail Raye Dawn wrote to the DHS and it is almost amusing. There is no
train of through there. The things she brings up are crazy. She complained about
Lance offering to buy Kelsey a coat. He did that because she handed Kelsey to
him with a T-shirt on, no jacket and it was 18 degrees outside. He was offering
to help and she turned it around. She always turned everything around. I don’t
understand why she let things get so out of hand.
She filed that epo on Lance when they split up and then had him come back for
several days and hide his truck out. Jeanna finally went and got him and told
him the first time she got mad she would call the cops on him and he would be in
jail. He came back here and that was the end of that until Kelsey came along. We
really thought we were rid of her until we found out she was pregnant. Then we
didn’t expect Kelsey to really be Lance’s. I never understood why a child would
be born under those conditions, but I am so glad we had the opportunity to know
her. She was such a joy for the short time we had her. She certainly was “Miss
Personality”.
Let me know what day, time, and place is good.
Monday, January 23, 2006 4:57:37 PM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Subj: Re: (no subject)
yes I do stay at work each day. Life has been forever altered for all of us, but
sometimes the only thing we can do is try to live the best way we know how. The
fact is I am lost without those children. Being a father is the only thing that
has ever really mattered to me. I know that this means nothing to you because
you feel I failed Kelsey. I did trust Raye Dawn with her life, which was a
mistake. I don’t make much money now, I never did. Every penny I had I spent on
the children and Raye Dawn. We would argue all the time about her priorities.
She would come to work to pick me up and all the kids would be in the backseat
hungry and she would be eating a hamburger. Trying to explain to Raye Dawn why
children should come first is like talking to a brick wall. The money I would
budget each week for food and gas she would spend on beer and cigarettes. It was
a constant battle. Her statements now are so ridiculous about my “jealousy o
Kelsey”. Quite the opposite actually. When i talked to her about the kids, it
was all of them I felt she was neglecting, not just mine. There was never
something that I did for or gave to my children that Kelsey did not get first.
the only thing that gives me any comfort, and believe me it is a tiny comfort,
is knowing that the minute amount of time that I was allowed to spend with
Kelsey I feel she had fun and felt safe with me. My time with the children was
spent focusing on the children, going to the park, playing in the yard, whatever
they wanted to do. Raye Dawn would sit inside and drink, or sit on the porch and
drink. She made fun of me ad called me a kid because i would rather be spending
time with the kids than anything. In hindsight everything is so clear. Debbie
has only played into Gayla’s hands with the stupid grudge thing. But it makes me
as mad at the DA and the OSBI as anyone. They should not be deterred from
speaking to people because the mother of a murder suspect convinces them that
the people who will speak about them have a grudge. The biggest mistake Richard
is making besides not talking to me is assuming Raye Dawn’s testimony will have
credibility with a jury when she is a murder suspect. As far as I know Friday is
a “telephonic status conference”. I am not sure if appearances will be made or
not. The sad thing is, many of the things I will tell you would be amusing if
they were not so tragic with what we know now. I know how she turned things
around. Every time I begged Gayla to help me with Raye Dawn will be turned
around on me. Every fight we had about the kids and her obsession with your
family will be turned into jealousy of Kelsey and jealousy of Lance. My
acceptance of her friendship with Chris will be turned into jealousy of him. I
doubt everything she ever told me now in hindsight. She told me that Jason broke
up with her because he couldn’t handle her having a child. But in hindsight, I
see he broke up with her because she lied to his family about who’s Kelsey
was!!! That is the thing about Raye Dawn, the things she says will always have
about 20% of actual facts in them. I have a question about you all finding out
Kelsey was Lance’s. Did Lance know about Jason? And does the DA know about the
Clark’s and how they were lied to and believed that Kelsey was their grandchild?
If that doesn’t show how much she hates your family. I had contemplated having
them subpeonad, I am reluctant to because they are innocent people, but then
again this is too important to consider people’s feelings. I can assure you that
your schedule is busier than mine. Here is my schedule – work every day from
7:30 – 6:00. My sister picks me up at work at 6:00. after that would be fine,
during the work day would be fine if I had transportation but the Spawn of Satan
has taken care of that for me. I do not want to be in a rushed atmosphere, and I
know you don’t either. Honestly you tell me the day and I will make it happen.
Monday, January 23, 2006 21:49:51 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: (no subject)
Sounds as if you are having a particularly bad day. They seem to come more often
and I understand, please feel free to vent here anytime. I do believe we were
both mislead into thinking a lot of things. I am trying to remain open minded
and I am willing to rethink some of my previous beliefs. I gave Raye Dawn the
benefit of the doubt many times and now I realize she did not deserve any of it.
I don’t know what happened in Kelsey’s life while she was in Raye Dawn’s care.
There was an excuse for everything. Raye Dawn stated in court the first time in
February that if you tell a child something often enough they will repeat it,
she made the same statement in June. That told me that Kelsey was brainwashed to
say what she had been told over and over. Think about that. I could be a total
idiot for listening to anything you say, but something tells me we were both
wronged by the same family. I have been looking at the DHS reports today and
each time I catch something new. I saw red flags from the beginning of this, but
no one would listen.
You are right our lives will never be the same. All we can do now is figure out
what went wrong and make her pay. At this point I do believe Raye Dawn and Gayla
are very evil and they have manipulated people to long. It has to stop before
more innocent people pay the price. I do worry about your new baby and the life
they will inflict on him/her. I also worry about the two children you already
have. Raye has ruined so many lives all because she hated our family.
The whole thing is she had no reason to hate as she did. Most of the things she
has said are lies. She and Lance did have a crappy marriage, but it wasn’t one
sided. Truth be known Lance tried to help her stop drugs many times. H wanted to
just have a normal marriage, that is why he went to rehab. When he did not
continue to want Raye, that is when the hate came in. She did not want him, but
she could not stand the fact that he did not want her. She couldn’t stand the
fact that he found someone else and did normal things. That they treated Kelsey
like a child should be treated and there was nothing negative she could really
prove. She had no problems with me until I asked her to sign a piece of paper so
I could see Kelsey after Lance was deployed. She wanted me to trust her, but I
knew better. She would have let me see Kelsey, but it would have been at her
convenience and Ashley would have never been allowed around her.
She would never have let us see her on a holiday and I could not take the chance
of Kelsey not being a part of the family. It wasn’t fair to her to know her
cousins were close and she was always on the outside. This was never intended to
be against Raye, it was for Kelsey. A concept Raye could never have thought of.
Smothermon was busy when I took the papers in so I did not speak with him. Raye
and Gayla were at Mikdreds along with about four others cars today. Shirica saw
Raye and Gayla in her car leaving Mildreds going into Meeker around 5:30 and
Sarah was behind them. You need to realize Sarah is not going to come through
for you. They are up to something. They keep trying to pull stuff and it doesn’t
work. First they tried to put something in the paper and she would not do it.
They got mad. Then they wanted the OSBI to banish the bash board and that did
not work. Something is in the air and if they don’t put the little hussy in jail
soon we are probably going to be the target of their next scheme.
I don’t mean to be nosey, but are you not allowed to drive? I am trying to
figure out a meeting time. The next evening I have is Friday. The days are
fairly flexible. Let me know what is actually the best for you.
Monday, January 23, 2006 9:30:52 PM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Subj: Re: (no subject)
Today was bad. I get more and more frustrated everyday, as we all do. I am so
disillusioned with our justice system. I know I am preaching to the choir here,
but the fact that people are able to suppress the truth is almost maddening.
Some days I feel like there are too many people who know the truth for it to be
completely hidden, but hen there are days like today when I think it doesn’t
matter what I or anyone else who loves Kelsey does, because evil always wins. I
know you may have felt I was the one who hurt Kelsey. There were always excuses,
and the harder I pressed Raye Dawn on what happened, the angrier she got. So
finally I just insisted on going to the doctor to hear for myself. My aim is not
to get you to believe one way or the other. All I can do now is tell the truth
if I am given the chance and hope the people who are able to hold everyone
accountable will do so. Pauls researchers tell me everyday that Raye Dawn
exhibited many classic signs of a child abuser, and they can tell this just be
reading the DHS reports. I saw Raye Dawn drive by my office today twice. I do
not expect Sarah to come through for me. I am hoping she will tell just enough
of the truth to blow some of Raye Dawn’s bullshit away. The fact is, Sarah can’t
deny that she would come over to the house once a week at least. Every time she
would come over, her and Raye Dawn would go “drive around”. She would leave her
daughter with me and I would have all the kids with me. I have neighbors who
witnessed this. That never bothered me that they would leave the kids with me.
The truth be told I would rather have spent all my time with the kids than Raye
Dawn. But if I would have been this horrible person Sarah would have seen it and
never would have trusted me with her daughter. Her daughter would cry when she
would leave our house because she loved me so much. I don’t expect her to say
that she thinks Raye Dawn killed Kelsey. But I do expect her to tell enough of
the truth that people will know Raye Dawn is full of shit. I know they are up to
something, and I don’t really care. Let them do what they want. The only people
in that town who support them are Mildred and Sarah. Raye Dawn is ashamed to go
into Lewis becase she knows how they feel about her. Everyone who spoke up for
her regrets it. The OSBI was given some good info from Donna Gilbreth that
proved Raye Dawn lied about the timeline on the leg injuries and the zoo trip.
Carol Watson from Meeker News is on my witness list. She saw Raye Dawn blow her
top when Carol refused to print an article Raye Dawn wrote trashing Lance and
your family a couple of days after Kelsey died. I can meet with you tomorrow, I
do not mind. I can get a ride to meet you, depending on where it is. I do not
have a problem with Shirica’s apartment, but I want your word I will not be
recorded. I have already told you that I will give you any and all testimony I
have that will aid in making sure everyone is held accountable for Kelsey’s
death. I am not driving at this time as I have no vehicle and my license has
been suspended – long story. I feel the need to speak to you and I would like to
do it as soon as possible. Just tell me where Shirica’s apartment is and I will
see if I can make it there, if it is local.
Monday, January 23, 2006 23:40:24 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: (no subject)
There will be no recording devices, I know you are use to dealing with the
Smiths, but the Briggs do not operate that way. I would like to take a few notes
just because I am old and my memory left with Kelsey. If that will bother you I
won’t do that. Shirica’s apartment is where Raye’s was. Shirica just told me
earlier her new neighbor is Charity Sanchez. I assume you may know her since Amy
and Wendell have both been there this week. Shirica’s is on the back row, the
second one from highway 18 and has a Kelsey sign in the window. We really don’t
have to meet there if that makes you uncomfortable. I know you may need to work
and if you would rather wait I don’t mind.
Just so happens the day that Mildred, Raye, Janet, and Dorothy were at the
Meeker News to put the trash article in the paper, my daughter Robynn was there
too. We knew we needed to put Kelsey’s thank you in the paper by noon and we had
to leave town so I pulled in from of your office and Robynn went in. I waiting
and waiting and wondered what was taking so long. About that time I saw Raye and
Janet come out and thought “oh my gosh”, then a few minutes later Mildred and
Dorothy came out. They had parked over by Mildreds truck and were in Gayla’s car
so we had no idea they were there or we would have waited. Robynn came walking
out laughing, then they went to Lewis and said Robynn was stalking her. We would
have expected no less.
I hope Sutton is having someone go through the reports and the stuff Raye has
written to prove the girl is unstable. We can’t be the only ones who see it.
I just read the three page e-mail from Raye Dawn in the DHS files again.
Everytime I read it I am amazed. She skips around, she is crazed.
I had the OSBI go to Lewis and talk to the women there. Rita Ballard is one of
them and she was a Smith supporter before. Donna Gilbreth called me and talked
for a long time about things Raye stated while working there.
Debbie Hammons played right into their hands last night and then changed her
name to Joan. She was so obvious. I wish I wasn’t addicted to that stupid bash
board, I know there has to be better things to do with my time. I do enjoy
getting on Kelseyspurpose, each time I see her smiling face it makes me smile. I
have met many nice people from this site. We had a meeting tonight to discuss
more rally’s in April.
Let me know what is best for you.
Monday, January 23, 2006 11:22:39 PM CST
From: truejustice101105@aol.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Subj: Re: (no subject)
How does 1:00 sound? I see no need in waiting. The more I put it off the more
chance I have of talking myself out of doing it. Richard told Paul today that he
still ahs every intention of arresting her, he just does not want it to be for
too little. The thing is he can amend charges, but I believe that they can only
be amended down, not up. If he does not charge her with murder then he never
will. So Robynn overheard all this in the newspaper office? That is almost
comical. That was the same day that Raye Dawn was at Lewis telling everyone that
she was going to own Midwest and that all my friends would be working for her. I
wish I could have seen the look on her face when the truth hit her that she
would never be able to have a part of that place. I still honestly believe when
she retained Huddleston she hired him in the hopes of filing a wrongful death
suit. Huddleston is well known as a personal injury lawyer, but not so much as a
criminal lawyer. I can guarantee you that when the they found out I had nothing
to take they had to have panicked. I can’t even imagine what that lawyer cost
them, probably at least a $50,000 retainer, and that is without her going to
trial. The sad thing is Gayla would spend every dime to protect Raye Dawn rather
than admit that she needs help and get it for her. To me, anyone who can’t see
that Raye Dawn is a sociopath is blind.
I was at the funeral. I SAW her with my own two eyes. She can turn it on
and off like a light switch. People in that family actually badmouthed me
because I was so distraught at her Kelsey’s funeral. It was surreal. You know
the sad thing, there was so much evidence at thae house that could have been
used against Raye Dawn that is gone now, stacks of letter s that she would write
after she had sobered up from one of her drinking rages, so may things that
becasue Kevin wanted to arrest me so quickly will never come to light. I could
have handed her on a silver platter, but since they let her clean out all the
evidence like they always do, all I have left is my word, which is damaged
because I stood behind raye Dawn even when I had doubts. I will do my best to
control my emotions tomorrow but I can’t promise anything. I can’t turn my
feelings on and off like Raye Dawn. Although I did not kill Kelsey and I do not
feel I should spend the rest of my life in prison, a part of me feels a great
deal of responsibility and regret. I was already faced with the facts that I
believed Kelsey died in my arms, but I would have coped with that because I knew
I did everything I could THAT day to save her. But then for people to not only
say that I didn’t try to help her but that I actually took her life is almost
impossible to take. The fact is Raye Dawn will always be the same person, she
will never change. I am not the person I was when I was with her. I tried to
make her change and be the paretn she should have been, but eventually, well I
will stop there, I am just venting, nothing of use and certainly nothing you
want to hear. Let me know if 1:00 will work and I will be dropped off there at
that time.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006 02:46:38 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: (no subject)
Do you live close to something? I can meet you in the City. This should not be
this hard. I don’t have a problem with picking you up. It is not like I feel
unsafe. I am up for a while. If you write back with a plan that is okay, if not
I will hear from you tomorrow or later today since it is already tomorrow. If
you write back with a plan that is okay, if not I will hear from you tomorrow or
later today since it is already tomorrow. If you can meet earlier on Wednesday
that is okay. Don’t chicken out, I don’t bite, that was Kelsey’s trademark. I
don’t know if this is proper for us to visit. I have no idea what Lance or Royce
would say and I don’t want to know right now. I don’t know why I have compassion
for your situation, but I do. I know what it is like to be at the end of the
Smiths tactics. You know how they work so you should have an advantage, then
again, knowing how sneaky there are can be scary. Gayla is the one that should
be ashamed of herself for taking advantage of someone so young. It really makes
me sick the way they think they are beyond accountability. They have been in
Meeker so many times lately and that is odd. I think Smothermon does want to
arrest her for murder, and at one time I thought it was a done deal. I think you
can arrest up, but not positive. There is no statue of limitations on it. Did
you know that Raye got an audio of the funer from Parks Brothers? I think I will
see if Smothermon will get a court order for it. It will show psycho woman in
action. I saw Sutton leaving either the court house or the DA’s office today.
Has he had a meeting with him ever? I still have faith in this and you should
not give up. I am not closed minded, but so far I am not convinced she doesn’t
need to be charged. I guess you can confirm my gut feelings when we meet. Let me
know something. This should not be so hard, dang!
Tuesday, January 24, 2006 9:50:38 AM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Subj: Re: (no subject)
We can meet earlier Wednesday if that is ok. Raye got an audio recording of the
funeral? She is a sick puppy. The audio will not prove how cold she was. A video
recording would porve that beyond a doubt. I will never give up. Kathie, you
should have serious concerns about her being charged. I have said it time and
time again, I will accept any responsibility that is mine in this. We all owe
that to Kelsey. But I will not accept responsibility so the person who killed
Kelsey can walk free. I really hope you have serious doubts about it, because if
the DA chooses to prosecute me he will be prosecuting the wrong person for
Kelsey’s murder. I hope that shakes you to your core like it does me. I know
everyone wants to believe that stuff like this only happens on TV, but it
happens right here in Meeker America. The fact that Raye Dawn has already fooled
so many is very scary. When I was first arrested, my feeling was utter shock but
I had faith that the truth would be revealed. As time passed, fear began to sink
in. The fact is Raye Dawn fooled the one person she had to fool from the
beginning, Kevin Garrett. The are using a statement Raye Dawn made about Kelsey
was fine and breathing when she left. DId you see in the DHS reports about the
interview with Whitney? Why would Raye Dawn tell Whitney on the way back from
picking her up from school that Kelsey was eating the raisins and she was fine
when she left? I can’t figure that one out. At that point she should not have
known anything was wrong, if she did not do anything, right? I still don’t get
why Richard has not considered her statement in the News Star about “she knew
something was wrong when she left”. You can call it ESP, you can call it a
premonition, you can call it mothers intuition, but I call it bullshit. Where
was her mother’s intuition for all this time when I was supposedly hurting
Kelsey? AHHH!!! This is so ridiculous. You should not be convinced by a long
shot. If Raye Dawn was able to convince you that she was innocent by convincing
the DA then that could be her single biggest coup. I don’t know what the DA has
or tells you he has, but Paul has people and proof and he knows what the DA has
and says he is using it to prosecute the wrong person. Raye Dawn and her
followers assume that because Whitney is on the list she will be testifying
against me. I am afraid they will be sadly mistaken in court. Any testimony
Whitney would give would make Raye Dawn look so much worse, but the OSBI never
asked any of these people anything about RAye Dawn. Whitney’s grandma tried to
tell the OSBi about all the times she came over to pick Whitney up and Raye DAwn
would be sleeping and the kids would just be running loose and how EVERY time
she came over Raye DAwn had a beer in her hand. You know what Kevin said “Well
just becuase she drinks that doesn’t make her a bad mother” SO apparently
alcoholism is a desirable trait in parents now according to Mr. Garrett. Whitney
saw Raye Dawn slap me so many times, and she knows what kind of parent Raye Dawn
is. She knows we fought about her drinking and her not putting the kids first.
Anyway, sorry to unload on you again. I do not have a problem meeting you. I do
not know if I will be able to confirm any feelings you have, but I can tell you
the truth. I can tell you if Richard gets this wrong then THE PERSON WHO KILLED
KELSEY WILL GO FREE. HOW DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL? THAT SOULD SCARE THE HELL OUT
OF YOU. IT SCARES THE HELL OUT OF ME. SOMEONE KILLED KELSEY AND SO FAR BY AND
LARGE THEY HAVE MANAGED TO ESCAPE SUSPICION FOR THE ACTUAL CRIME.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006 14:35:58 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: (no subject)
First of all, I want Raye Dawn in jail and I want her charged with murder. I
want the DA and everyone involved to prove to me beyond a reasonable doubt that
she was not responsible. I am not falling for the Smith lies, not this time. I
am going to try and have an open mind in case I am wrong. I do feel you are
being sincere, but it would not be the first time I fell for the wrong story. I
don’t want you to think I am doubting you, I don’t actually know you and I have
to be prepared to accept the fact that you could also be manipulating me. I
don’t think you are, but look how gullible I have been over the past year. I
tried to save Kelsey from an abusive life and everytime the very people that
could help her listened to the Smiths. I know they are evil and manipulative
people. It makes me sick that we did not sue other means to protect her, but we
felt being ethical law abiding citizens and telling the truth would help. We
were out played and Kelsey paid for it and all I can do is fight for the truth
now. I think we are both on the same page for that. I don’t know what the DA has
in mind. He hasn’t given me that information in black and white. I hope when I
go in there tomorrow he will have read through more reports and he will have her
phone records like I requested. I really wanted her in jail by now and the wait
is making me nuts. Honestly I want her and Gayla in jail, they both failed
Kelsey in my books. I will not stop until every last person that had knowledge
of wrong doing is help responsible. If you are willing to help me do that I am
willing to help you.
The funeral home gives people a copy of the audio just as part of the package.
It is kind of eerie, but I guess some people actually want them. We got one too
and I can’t see myself wanting to hear it anytime soon.
Lance is working to get witnesses that saw Raye mistreat Kelsey to come forward.
I know they are out there and if the father of this child can make them feel
guilty for staying quiet then that is the tactic we will use. What exactly is
the DA telling Sutton? Have they discussed Raye’s part in this? I don’t have any
records with Whitney’s interviews in them. That must be the OSBI records. I know
Smothermon has the video tapes of all of the interviews with the OSBI. The DA
knows I don’t trust anyone in this and I will question every move he makes. I
feel he wants the truth, he just wants enough of it to get a conviction. What
would make Raye get an attorney for wrongful death if she thought Kelsey died of
a seizure? She probably thought she needed to file before Lance did.
I heard Huddleston does do murder charges and he was good. Raye certainly did
not fight to hard when Lance fought executive rights to Kelsey. They never asked
for Raye to have the rights, they asked for a neutral party to be in charge.
Lance’s attorney was finally able to bring up the fact that Raye lied in court
about being pregnant when she got divorced and it was not denied. They called
her to the witness stand and her attorney would not let her go. That was a great
day for us after we watched the news. I love Nick Winkler.
Anytime on Wednesday would be fine. Not before 10:00, I might be cranky if I
have to get around early. Do you need me to park around the corner and drive you
over there? Let me know. I am home today with a sick child so I will be checking
this all day.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006 2:22:49 PM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Subj: Re: (no subject)
They will never be able to prove beyond a reasonable doubt that she did not do
it – there is nothing that will exclude her. We have already talked to doctors
who have told us that the state I saw Kelsey in when I found her was most likey
a form of shock from the massive trauma she suffered, and convulsions are common
with this. I am sorry if that is too graphic, but the first time I saw the ME
report I threw up. The fact is the things that happened to Kelsey would have
been very hard to do in that short of a time period. One hting that you probably
do not know is that in my interview with Steve Tanner at OSBI – he told me that
they knew Kelsey was gone when I got there and that Raye Dawn killed her. I know
these are police tactics, but the fact remains he said this. Now answer me this
– who could instantly grasp the possibility that their spouse killed their
child? Someone who had to and knew exactly what they had to say, that is who.
But he knew that at that time I was not in a state of mind to grasp that Raye
Dawn killed Kelsey. I was in denial and shock. The other thing that he did to me
which was very unfair was he left open the minute possibility that her death
could have been accidental. He kept saying, what happened, did she fall off the
trampoline, etc. So no matter how small the possibility was that it could have
been an accident, that was the hope that I clung to. The alternative was to
believe that my wife who I loved beat her own child to death and left me there
to take the blame. If Steve would have told me the whole truth, the state she
was in and that it was obvious it was no accident, then I could have at least
tried to get my mind around it. he kept saying, you’re thiking emotionally, you
need to be rational. I do not know anyone could have been rational at that
point, but apparently Raye Dawn was. Kathie, I rode home in the same car with
raye DAwn after that interview and I cried and screamed at her to tell me what
happened. She said “I don’t want to talk about it”. She was calm as can be. It
is terrifying to me in hindsight looking back at some of her actions. There are
plenty of people who have seen Raye Dawn mistreat Kelsey. Paul knows the DA will
arrest her, he tells me to be patient. He says they jumped the gun with me and
the mistakes they have made are very damaging to their case in general. He feels
he will file on her before Friday, but for what we do not know. Since the DA
will not talk to me, I would guess it would just be failure to protect. The DA
will never know the whole truth until he sits down with me. Raye DAwn got the
attorney as soon as she found out it was ruled a homicide, but my point was
simply that Huddelstons law firm is more well known for civil and personal
injury suits than for criminal defense. He is not that good of a lawyer because
he let Raye DAwn make several damaging statements in the press, but he seems to
have gotten that curtailed by not lettign her open her mouth anymore publicly. I
can assure you Gayla needs to be in jail too, if for nothing more than the
actions she has taken to cover up for Raye Dawn. How about 11:00? i can have
someone bring me over there, it should not be too hard to find. No on will know
what I am doing for the same reasons no one will know what you are doing.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006 3:17:30 PM
From: KJBRIGGS
To: trujustice101105@hotmail.com
Subj: Re: (no subject)
Don’t worry about getting to graphic, I need to know everything my grandchild
suffered from. I have already seen one of the autopsy photos. The DA covered her
face for me, was a little hard to take, but it is her and if she can endure the
pain, I can surely hear about it and look at the damage. I owe it to her to know
everything she suffered. I really hope Lance does not have to see any of that in
court. Hopefully they will just have the pictures for he jurors and not display
them. Lance did not want to see her after she died. He couldn’t handle the fact
that his child had been cut on. We had a closed casket service, but later Ashley
needed to see her for closure. I don’t know if it is a good thing not to have
seen her or not. Sometimes it seems like it really did no happen. We had to go
so long without seeing her and sometimes it seems like she is still here and we
just can’t diagram without seeing her and sometimes it seems like she is still
here and we just can’t see her. The ME report was much worse than I expected. I
cannot look at the diagram without seeing her face. I see Kelsey there not an
outline.
Sutton is probably right, I hope to know more tomorrow about the DA thinks. He
certainly isn’t getting any vibes from that family that we think she is
innocent. I really feel he wants her in jail for life one way or the other.
I hope Sutton is right, maybe tomorrow we will be together when we get the call
she is in jail. 11:00 will be fine. You can call me at home if something comes
up. I don’t think my phone is tapped, don’t know why it would be. You can also
call my cell phone if you would be more comfortable 788-6864.
That is strange behavior on the way home from the OSBI. Where was Gayla? Didn’t
Raye know what the autopsy was for and did it concern her? When they took Kelsey
that night did she act funny about it? Did she sleep that night like nothing was
wrong? We were all in such shock, we couldn’t sleep, or eat for days. We could
not force food in Lance. He just kept looking at her pictures and screaming that
she isn’t smiling now. Watching him get off that plane was so painful. It was a
long trip on the way up there just dreading it. Ashley and her family met us
there and he would not even look at her. Was very weird. I noticed several cars
at the house on the news. Did Gayla and the other family members come up there
or did they just ignore you?
Tuesday, January 24 15:14:57 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Billboard
Ashley
called this morning because her company is putting a billboard up for six months
and with that contract they are able to have a Kelsey one for free. Then this
morning they found out you are putting one up too. Shirica called Lance and told
him you wanted to do this and he approved it. Then we Ashley said her company
would not probably do it if there all is one up. I told her to have the company
go ahead. I know they are expensive and you really need to put your money
towards your children or other expenses. We are not saying we don’t appreciate
the idea, but this really is to much money for one person to do. I don’t want
this to hurt your feelings. Maybe we could come up with another idea that could
get the same results you are looking for. There is a lady outside of meeker
going to Shawnee where the old taxidermy place was and she said we could put up
a big sign there. It would not be a billboard size, but could get a statement
across. You could have a large one and attach it to the outside of your
business. Your employees can have yard signs made. I am really wanting to get
them all over Meeker. I just wish people in this town were not so scared of
speaking out. Let me know what you think. I have to tell you if Lance has
approved letting you do something that is a big accomplishment. I mean BIG! I
did not know how he would react.
Tuesday,
January 24, 2006 6:05:35 PM CST
From:
truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To:
KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Subj: RE:
Billboard
Well,
then if they go ahead and do it then I will hold off. But money is not an
object, not meaning i that I have it but meaning that me and my family will do
everything in our power to make sure that people do not forget about Kelsey. It
does not hurt my feelings at all, I just wanted it done. I tried to have it done
from jail, but that was very difficult. Everything I do for Kelsey has to kept
hidden at thispoint and it is extremely frustrating. I could tell these people
how the system can be manipulated. I have seen the enemy up close and I know how
they do what they do and how they are able to hide it. I know the signs now and
the excuses everythign else. I know the things DHS could have done to prove Raye
DAwn was hurting Kelsey and to keep her safe. i can’t tell you how it makes me
feel that Lance approved my involvement as limited as it can be at this point. I
will never be able to give him anything but maybe the small comfort of knowing
the truth and and a promise that I will do everything I can to make sure the
people who failed Kesley are held responsible. I know these things are nothing
next to his wish to hold his precious daughter once more, but it is all I have
to give. I will give my life it means the person(s) responsible will be held
accountable. Kelsey life was worth a thousand of my lives. But I WILL not give
it so these same people who are responsible can be free. I think that many
people’s biggest hesitation is they do not feel that someone who was completely
manipulated should go to prison for the rest of their life. I am not saying that
I have a great deal of support in that town but I will tell you that people that
have known Raye DAwn her whole life do not believe in her. Wanna know what I
tell people? I tell them Justice for Kelsey means something different to
everyone. To me, Justice for Kelsey means holding the people responsible who
were BEHIND the deception and the lies and the abuse, and the people’s who’s JOB
it was to protect her. I know that I was not the one who abused Kelsey, and I
know I was not eh one(s) who were behind the deception. I was a pawn, but that
does not relieve me of responsibility. I will never claim complete innocence
like Raye DAwn has. I AM INNOCENT OF MURDER. So when I put up Justice for Kelsey
signs, that is what it means to me. I think some people think that by putting up
signs they are agreeign with a certain notion of who should be punished. I know
that all the signs mean is “Let’s get justice for Kelsey, whatever that may be
and whoever may be responsible” The signs are not partial, and that is why it is
so absurd that the Smith’s feel the need to get their own. The signs do not say
“Raye Dawn killed Kelsey”. They say “JUSTICE FOR KELSEY”. Only a guilty person
would not support that cause. I honestly can’t believe they have been so
vengeful even now. In hindsight if I really was the one abusing Kelsey you would
think that you would be the first person Raye DAwn would calland apologize to
for being fooled and allowing it to happen. But don’t hold you rbreath on that
one. Her actions speak volumes to me, and I think to any sane person they do
also. I guess I am either starting to question the DA’s true intentions or his
competency, I am not sure which one yet. I did hear something form someone, and
I usually do not listen to what is said, but the source on this has been a very
reliable source in the past. This person I heard this new bit of info from was
the one who called me the day before I was arrested ad told me it was gonna
happen. I was told that the DA was made aware of a statement that Raye DAwn made
to a man at a bar in which she admitted to killing Kelsey. It apparently was
made with sarcasm, but the fact that she would joke about it seems kind of sick
to me. I know she was seen at Dietrich’s in Shawnee a month or so ago with Chris
so the statement seems feasible. She is not above confessing, becasue I can tell
you she is very smug about this whole deal. When I saw her at Quail Springs Mall
she laughed. Not a reaction you would expect form a mother who sees her
daughters supposed killer. I was shaking and almost went into cardiac arrest. I
still want to do something to support what you all are doing. I guess I could
make an anonymous donation to Charlies, say so the next 100 yard signs or so
would be paid for and stickers also?
Thursday
January 26, 2006 13:52:31 EST
From:
KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To:
truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject:
Re: Thanks
You are
welcome, I enjoyed our visit. I know it wasn’t easy for you. I am on my way to
meet Cherokee Ballard in a few minutes for a story on Lance.
I looked
at some reports last night too, and I have a question about the checks. I found
an entry that stated you told them that your check book had been stolen. Is that
something you told the DHS to cover for Raye?
I did not
get the feeling I wanted when I left the DA’s office. He is going out of town
all next week and it will be after that before he gets back to work on this
case. My trust issues are flaring up again.
Gotta go,
I will check with you later.
Saturday, January 28, 2006 8:41:53 AM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Subj: Re: Thanks
About the checks – I was missing a book of checks and I had been told by my
neighbors that they had seen a woman who still liked me lurking around our
house. I thought they may have been stolen, but it is probably more likely Raye
DAwn took a book of checks. I was not great with checks or I could have proved
it. I will be able to tell with the carbons from BancFirst. I knew that I had
either lost a book or had a book taken. I could not fathom at the time that it
might have been Raye Dawn. But yes in hindsight I was covering for Raye Dawn I
guess in a way, because I knew the likelihood that the person who stole the
checks would have written a check at the same liquor store Raye always went to
was slim. I have one for you – the DA is subpeonaing phone records FINALLY. Do
you remember Raye Dawn’s phone number at the apartment? This would help prove
many things such as she would call Angie(an RN) about Kelsey’s injuries. I could
not remember it, and I thought you might have it written down in some old notes.
If you don’t want to give it to me I understand, but it will help in the case
against Raye Dawn.
Sunday, January 29, 2006 7:34:34 PM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: kjbriggs@aol.com
Subj: RE:
I will help however I can you know that. But if you had access to the OSBI
report you would be puking right now, just like I have been since I saw it. And
I have not seen Raye Dawn’s obviously, but if the DA is talking about not filing
against her then I would think all you would have to do is mention to him that
you will be requesting access to the OSBI report at the conclusion of the
investigation and I would think that would change his tune. Paul has told me
that he can not choose not to file against her since the OSBI has issued an
arrest affidavit for her. I am not sure what exactly is going on, but I believe
Jeanna was on the bash board and I
was trying to get her to keep an open mind because I feel there IS GOOD evidence
to prove that Raye Dawn killed Kelsey. I had mentioned when I spoke to you that
the DA may not be telling you everything, including his dealings with raye Dawn,
and all the evidence that is NOT favorable to his position. I know you do not
trust anyone, nor do I. I am not asking you to trust me, I am simply asking you
to remain skeptical of everything.
There is so much more. Kelsey’s voice is there, in the information, he just has
to look and hear it. Being close minded will NOT work.
Sunday, January 29, 2006 21:27:08 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Re:
I wish I could see the OSBI reports. I was wondering how he could keep from
arresting her if they had issued an affidavit. I was wondering what the charge
was that they recommended. So you only have a copy of yours? How are you to
prepare a defense without both? I do believe Jeanna misunderstood what she
thought Smothermon was saying and she has written an apology. We are always
skeptical of everything we hear. Things are not adding up and that is what is
turning in my head. I really need
to know some of the things that I asked you. If you are not comfortable telling
me that is okay. I am trying to piece together some of the things she told me.
My thought is Raye Dawn is not alone in this and I want to see what others knew
as well. I am just like you, grasping at straws. One more question though, you
told me Judge Key told Wilson that Raye would be getting Kelsey back, but how
much ahead of time did she know that? You do realize if they were trying to help
Raye Dawn then that it could still be going on. Craig Key will be trying to
cover his butt.
Remember when I told you someone said they saw someone take something out of
that house during the funeral? Well, today there was a fire back behind that
house. I don’t know if it is related in anyway, but if that was a piece of
evidence it could have burned. Does that house have insurance?
Sunday, January 29, 2006 9:19:12 PM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Subj: Re:
I will meet with you agian and tell you anything you want to know, no beating
around the bush. You let me know if you want to do this and we will sit down and
get down to business. You can make notes if you wish. The truth I will tell you
will be the same truth I will tell the DA, if I ever have the chance. Jeanna did
not need to write an apology, I just know how much faith you all are having to
put in him and I am afraid that his true intentions may let you all down. I
understand how you feel about me and nothing I can do can change that. The
things I am going to do are not going to be for you or anyone else, they will be
for Kelsey. Her mother does not love her enough to tell the truth about her
life, but I do. I do not expect you to believe everything I tell you, but I have
faith that you will know the truth when you hear it. I believe Shirica knew the
truth when she heard it, but that is of course just my belief. I WANT JUSTICE
FOR KELSEY. WHAT IS HAPPNEING RIGHT NOW IS NOT JUSTICE. WE NEED AN INDEPENDENT
REVIEW OF THE DECISIONS THAT ARE BEING MADE. RAYE DAWN HAS BEEN PROFILED AS A
SOCIOPATH. TO HER, SOMETHING SHE COULD USE TO MAKE HERSELF FEEL GOOD AND EXACT
REVENGE ON LANCE AND YOUR FAMILY. I AM SORRY TO PUT IT IN THOSE WORDS, BUT THAT
IS THE DEFINITION. I KNOW WE ALL KNEW KELSEY WAS SO MUCH MORE, BUT RAYE DAWN
NEVER HAD THE CAPABILITY OF KNOWING HER LIFE HAD VALUE. KATHIE, I WISH YOU
UNDERSTOOD HOW I FEEL. THE ONLY PERSON WHO KNOWS THESE THINGS AND IS NOT AFRAID
TO TELL THEM IS BEING IGNORED, BECAUSE HE HAS BEEN CHARGED WITH A CRIME. DOES IT
MAKE ME LESS CREDIBLE BECAUSE ONE MAN THINKS HE WILL HAVE A BETTER CHANCE OF
GETTING A CONVICTION BY PROSECUTING ME THAN BY PRESECUTING A MOHTER WHO HAS
MANAGED TO PUT DHS, A JUDGE, A CASA WORKER, A CHBS WORKER, AND AN OSBI AGENT IN
HER POCKET? I am sorry that you were misled into believing he actually wants to
prosecute Raye Dawn. As far as the OSBI reports, I am only allowed to see mine
because that is all that he can used in my prosecution. I feel like there is
ENOUGH in mine to prosecute her. I know you are trying to prove she has lied to
cover things up, but she has proven that herself. She has changed her story
about the collarbone NO fewer than three times. I am going to try to reach out
to Miste, and see if she will AT LEAST admit that Kelsey did not hurt her
foot/ankle at the zoo. Ihad heard that Gayla and Rick were no longer together,
but I do not know for sure. That would be something, if the life Gayla lived was
finally catching up to her. She would not be able to support herself and Raye
Dawn without Rick, and she probably would not even be able to afford the lawyer.
Sad that all the DA would have to do would be to file charges and if he filed
against both of them, then Gayla would have to make the choice between herself
or her daughter, then the truth might come out. Even if it didn’t bring the
truth out, it would make Gayla show what kind of mother she really was. Kathie,
Gayla knew – she knew something was going on. She had seen Kelsey from he time
she was born, how could she not? What movie was she going to? Was there even a
cartoon movie out at that time? She has lied since to cover for Raye Dawn, and
to me that is enough for at least an obstruction of justic charge, if not
failure to protect. I never knew Kelsey before she was abused. My sisters
thought something was strange the first time they met Raye Dawn. We wnet out to
dinner and Kelsey was talking or something, and Raye Dawn WENT off on her. My
sisters were like “Whoa”. Raye Dawn looked at them after she went off, and said
“She’s really shy and quiet”. She obviously was not. But they knew then that she
wanted to control Kelsey and make her be a certain way that she was not. She did
not want Kelsey interfering in her single life, which was odd because I wanted
us to do things all together, but on nights I would not have my children she
would insist on “getting rid” of Kelsey. On nights she couldn’t and I wouldn’t
stay with her or let her stay with me I know she had to be angry at Kelsey. DO
you think your source on Gayla and Raye staying at Mildred’s is reliable? I
could see Gayla making Raye move there but I could not imagine Gala living
living there. And the thing about evidence being removed...they cleaned that
house out THE DAY I was arrested. They can say they were “in shock” and
“grieving”, but they were not. The day I was arrested, they loaded up some of my
kids things and dropped them off at Alesha’s parents house, and SWEPT that house
clean. That is COLD, LOGICAL thinking. I know evidecne was destroyed, but what
can we do? The DA made sure of that. If they would have came ot me before they
arrested me and wanted to go through the house I would have let them, no
questions asked. I did not remove or tamper with anything in that house. It was
all I could manage to do to eat and try to sleep. Raye Dawn’s letters which she
wrote after she would snap, the laundry that was being done, the alcohol, all
the pictures I took of Kelsey’s bruises, those things are ALL gone. Thank the DA
for that.
Sunday, January 29, 2006
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: (no subject)
I just had a report that possibly Raye Dawn and Gayla are staying with Mildred.
You know how rumors are, but Gayla’s car has been there for the past three days.
I just want you to know if we don’t get some sort of proof that Raye Dawn lied
about the different accounts of abuse or someone who saw her drink and drive or
something, she might walk. You are the only one who can help me figure this
stuff out. I was thinking last night about the time Kelsey busted her nose and
Raye Dawn said she fell in her aprartment. Do you know about that? Several lies
will make a big difference. My hopes of justice seem to be fading where the
Smiths are concerned. If you know of something Gayla knew about and did not
report it needs to be known. Basically she will be having another child and will
go on with her life if the answers are not there.
Monday, January 30, 2006 6:35:22 PM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Subj: RE: (no subject)
I do not know what to say except the answers ARE there. They are righ in front
of the DA. The only thinkg I can think of is they may not be being viewed
objectively. Raye Dawn lies about each separate instance 3 times AT least fromt
he reports I have seen. The DA obviously feels he has the right person for the
murder. He is seriously mistaken on that. But with him believing that, the OSBI
in my opinion has already proven Raye Dawn lied about several of the istances in
question. Only she knows what happened on a few of these instances, and whether
she says she was lying to cover for me or whether she lied to cover for herself
like I know she did, she STILL LIED, and it is right there in black and white.
There is an OSBI report on Raye Dawn 3 inches thick full of lies and
misinformation uncovered. So now you see that you may have been mislead by the
DA also? He may be hesitating to file charges because he knows that Huddestons
defense for failure to protect will be “If you charge Raye awn then you have to
charge everyone.” This is not a denial of guilt, but it is still a powerful
defense because it would force the DA to prove the level of involvement of each
person thoroughly. He may be scared to file charges, but in NO ay does that mean
that he does not have what he needs. If he says I was abusing Kelsey, then she
is automatically guilty of failure to protect, bacuase it would mean every story
she said was a lie. I hope you umderstand my level of frustration with this case
now. The total reluctance and noe DENIAL to actually pursue the possibility that
Raye Dawn killed Kelsey. It is terribly sad for me to see how badly this case
has been handled. You know that I care about justice more than myself. Miste
would have come forward if I would not have been charged. The DA took that. She
was one of the only links to the actual lies that Gayla and Raye Dawn have told,
she knew so many of them and would have exposed them. The things I know about
Raye Dawn do not make her guilty of failure to protect. I know the DA has told
you and your family he would rather see a guilty person walk free then prosecute
an innocent person, but that is absolutely what he is doing. I am sorry that you
may have been mislead and the DA does not care about holding the right people
accountable. I was telling you in a way that I already knew that. This case is
about a conviction, and his record. If he goes after everyone he should, he is
scared he will not win those cases. The evidence is there to prosecute Raye Dawn
for murder and or failure to protect, I guarantee you that. She has changed her
story 3 times on every account. Her timecards that she was so desperate for from
Lewis and Donna’s calendar prove she lied about the zoo. Gayla saw Kelsey be
abused since last July and did nothing. How do you prove that except it
happened? She said herslef she would do anything to get Kelsey back fromyou, she
didn’t care what it took. I guess we may need to talk again to discuss some
things, if you are up to it. Let me know what you think.
Monday, January 30, 2006 20:47:55 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@htomail.com
Subject: Re: (no subject)
I have been thinking since we met. I don’t think it is a good idea and I am not
comfortable with this. You could be baiting me for information, you could be
lying to me to get me to lend reasonable doubt with your information. Basically
I am doing the same thing. I am using you to find out what happened to my
granddaughter. It is wrong of me. You might be innocent of murder, you might be
guilty. I was not in that home that day and it is wrong for me to assume a
position either way without all the evidence. If you are innocent it is wrong
for me to put you in a position to lose your attorney. If you guilty it is wrong
for me to give you my time. You avoid every question and that tells me you are
just baiting me more and more. Basically my trust if very little. I cannot
change what happened in the criminal aspects of this case. I want to know who
failed Kelsey from January until Octobler 11th.
I will have to trust the court system and our DA to do that. I want
Justice for Kelsey and I cannot get it by doing anything unethical.
Monday, January 30, 2006 8:54:57 PM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Subj: Re: (no subject)
I understand. But just know that I want the same things as you. I will answer
any question that you have and I have told you that, but I would prefer not to
do it by e-mail at this time. I will leave my offer on the table. It will remain
there. If you choose to never take me up on it then I understand. I am sorry if
you felt I was avoiding your questions, I certainly have not tried to. So much
has been lost because people would not communicate. It would be a shame if we
still could not after everything. I am in no way baiting you. I told you in the
beginning I do not want nor do I expect any help from you in any way. My offer
for help in holding people accountable stands and will stand. No matter what
happens to me I will not stop until I have exhausted every means I have to make
sure people are held accountable. Please know that. Again, thank you for the
things, and I have not and will not ever try to bait you. To what end? 12 people
will decide my fate, and you will not be one of them. I know that. I will die
knowing I DID NOT hurt Kelsey, and there are people who can not say that for
themselves. I am sorry I have not made my true intentions clear to you. I
certainly understand your lack of trust, but I made my offer for help to you
with a pure heart.
Tuesday, January 31, 2006 3:33:47 AM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: kjbriggs@aol.com
Subj: RE: Answer
And I am not sure which questions you felt I was avoiding. I can’t go back
through and check e-mails because I delete them after I respond. But here are a
couple questions I know you had. Number one, yes Raye Dawn had a cell phone. Yes
Raye Dawn had a toddler bed/crib.
The bed had side rails that you could raise or lower. She had the side rail
removed and used it like a normal bed for Kelsey. She claimed to me that that
night she had turned the open side towards the wall, so Kelsey would had to have
climbed over the high side that was facing out. I had NEVER sen her do this
before. Her story on the collarbone has already changed so many times who knows
what happened. We were at Wendell’s house when Kelsey leaned on the unlatched
screen door. That was one of the very few times I ever saw Kelsey fall or hurt
herself. Miste lied about the zoo because Raye Dawn asked her to. Kelsey did NOT
hurt her foot at the zoo. Craig Key told Greg Wilson AT least three weeks before
the court hearing that “He was going to fix things”. Basically Gregmade it clear
to Raye Dawn that it was well in hand and all she had to do was show up. You
were there, you knew the Judge had his mind made up. The Judge came up to Raye
Dawn in the hallway and said “I created this monster, now let me take care of
it.” I heard this with MY OWN EARS. I do not ever want it saud that I was not
willing to do whatever it took to make sure the people who failed Kelsey are
held accountable. If you have any more questions, then feel free to ask them,
AND I WILL RESPOND IN WRITING. I WILL ASK NOTHING OF YOU. I care more about
justice for kelsey than myself, I would have thought I made that very obvious.
If I do not hear from you then I will know that you do not feel I can help you
in this cause. Thank you for your time.
February 20, 2006 7:50:26 PM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: kjbriggs@aol.com
Subj: RE: Good luck this week
I just wanted to tell you I will be praying for you this week. I hope the Lord
will allow the truth to come out in that courtroom so people can be held
accountable. You will be one of the only chances for Kelsey’s voice to be heard
in that room. Raye Dawn will be working against you and the truth, but you
already know that. Good luck and God Bless you.
Sunday, February 26, 2006 00:47:14 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: (no subject)
I just read your message as I spent the week planning for the grand jury. I
would also like to know if you would be willing to give a sworn statement to
Lance’s attorney about Judge Key. I think it is time to start bringing these
people down. I can assure you if you don’t help they will not be there for you.
It would be your way to get some of these people to held accountable.
Smothermon keeps saying if Raye Dawn cooperates she could receive a deal. You
should think about the same thing. I spoke to my attorney about this and he
would be willing to do a deposition with or without your attorney.
You wished us luck for the week. I can tell you we did not have it, but whats
new.
Sunday, February 26, 2006 12:22:15 AM
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.cm
Subj: RE: (no subject)
You know I will do this – the last thing I told you was my offer still stands.
You know I will do anything that will help you in your fight. I will make NO
deal that involves me admitting to something I did not do. I will admit to all
the culpability that I have in this – I told you that from day one. All I ask of
you is that you tell everything that you know also. Please Do not hold things
back that will prove RD’s guilt when the time comes. I will let you know this
week.
Sunday, February 26, 2006 01:42:27 EST
From: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
To: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: (no subject)
It is my against my better judgement to do this, but I still have questions and
i want answers. I will only tell the truth, but I can tell you after yesterday I
am ready to accept the fact that something has got to change. The royalty
treatment was uncalled for. I feel the DA is going to make her a deal and I
cannot accept that. The bottom line is I do not know what happened in that
house. I too will need to wait for the trials and will go from there. I cannot
change it and I cannot help you in the criminal defense, however I will tell the
truth as I have always done. If you are willing to talk to him, can I set up an
appointment? My main focus is getting a sworn statement against the Judge first.
Greg Wilson and Kellie Koons. Then of course I want to know everything you know
about connections between all of these people such as Carla Lynch and DHS. Did
Greg Wilson get to the Judge? How did that come about? I have been told
cooperation will go along way when deciding sentences and I cannot believe it
could hurt you to play their same game. You may feel I am out of line to ask you
for this information, but I still believe you want to help. I hesitated to
contact you again, but what went on in that court room was unreal. There was no
problems with the Porters and the Briggs in court and would not anticipate any
in the future. Your family can feel comfortable around us and we would be
willing to sit next to them without hesitation. This crime is not the fault of
other family members. Stupid Rick James kept hollaring ask Kathie Briggs. Julie
pushed Britten Follet in the hall and that was uncalled for. The other thing I
want to know is how much fraud was involved in buying that house and why don’t
you bring that out? Those people need to be reported if they committed fraud. I
realize it involves you as well, but what have you got to loose at this point?
Richard seems to think he works for them too, and if we cannot prove some of the
things they have done wrong they will still smell like a rose. I know you know
things and I am still here ready to expose others. I need your help in where to
look. The civil case can start soon. YOU ARE not the only witness against the
Judge, but it would really help. He did Kelsey wrong and you can make that
right.
Sunday, February 26, 2006 1:15:50 AM CST
From: truejustice101105@hotmail.com
To: KJBRIGGS@aol.com
Subj: Re: (no subject)
It has always been against my better judgement. But some things are more
important than others. I only ask you to tell the truth. I know you will. I can
tell you that we have put some things together that will mean NO deal for RD and
much more. But that is neither here nor there. And I am sorry if you ever felt I
was trying to use you for info – I simply wanted you to see that Richard is very
reluctant to even prosecute RD and I beleive that you know that now. I know you
can offer no help to me and would not and I have never asked you to and never
will. Yes I will tell you everything that I know. I would like to put it in
writing for mysefl first. And I can not risk losing Paul. He has promised to
help me prove the truth about what we know happened that day. You are not out of
line at all. You know my feelings about this – I do not want to put it in
e-mail. There was a time when I would have but my trust is non-existent now.
Kathie – I do want to help. I never had anything to gain by speaking to you and
everything to lose. But my main concern is proving what I know to be true. I
could not beleive what I saw on the news. They should have been thanking Richard
for gettign the star treatment. Instead they were pissed and blaming you STILL.
Not one word about me – the one who supposedly killed Kelsey. Crazy. Kathie –
the proof of fraud on the house is there. But at this point I will look
vindictive if I say, well Look at this Richard. I will tell everything I have
done wrong when the time comes – I promise you that. The phone records will help
tremendously and I will share those with you – I just need to figure out how. I
think the phone records may show some collusion with the Judge or Greg, I am not
sure. Let me write out everything I know and send it to you. Here is what I need
from you – Your solemn word that you will not share that information until I say
so. Give me an address to send the info to you and I will do it and then if you
think that it is worth me being deposed we will do it. BUt PROMISE you will keep
the info between you and your attorney – then it will fall under the
confidentiality clause.